posted on May, 20 2011 @ 06:47 AM
Reading between the lines, I think perhaps you feel guilty about your decision, on top of whatever fear and whatnot you are experiencing. This is a
common reaction among those who experience something traumatic. Perhaps you feel guilty because you are alive while so many others are dead. Perhaps
you feel guilty because you set a noble, lofty goal for yourself and are still too young to know what is and is not within your power. Perhaps it's
something else. But listen, this is very important: Do not let that feeling dominate your inner life in the days ahead.
You have nothing at all
to feel guilty about. You stuck it out far longer than most.
But more importantly, according to the post you linked to above anyway, it seems that your intentions in remaining are noble and humanitarian. That
alone is worth more than any amount of raw courage.
Anyway, what is somebody with a name like "Partygirl" doing hanging out with a bunch of losers like us on her last night in Japan instead of hitting
the clubs in Roppongi or Azabu? If that really is your pic in the Avatar I'm guessing you won't have to pay for drinks.
Do something nice for
yourself before you leave, because permanent memory of any place or experience is colored exceptionally strongly by both first and last
Best wishes for a safe and plesant trip home (or wherever your destination is).
edit on 5/20/11 by silent thunder because: (no reason given)