reply to post by mwood
Starting around 1997 ish , I was working in my Dry Cleaners 14-16 hours a day, as my business grew, i would spend many hours listening to the radio
and let me say ART BELL was one of my favorite programs. As time went by I really believed many things that were proposed, UFO's Sascuatch, Shadow
people ect.. but the one thing that really "caught me up" in concern, was the Y2K fear... it started lightly in my mind, but as more and more people
claiming to be EXPERTS, or "in the know" came forward with "evidence" my worry grew..
I remember telling my wife about my thoughts on how we should become "prepared" and she just thought i was worried over nothing and said well you go
ahead and do what you think is best.. she thought it was lighthearted and funny at that time. but it didn't stay funny for long.. as time went by and
2000 was approaching, so my stock piles of food supply's, and equipment grew, and i Became more certin that my "belife" was so self evident i started
telling my friends about "the end" and how they should get prepared like me... i remember giving tours of my "bunker" and tools, weapons with my
15,000 rounds of ammo, and showing how the house was wired for 12volt as well as back-up power for when the grid was going to go down.... i don't want
to give a full list here ,, but if it was available, i had the money to buy it.. i was so prepared i could feed a family and live without anything
else- quite well, for 2 years without ever leaving my land... my wife started with teasing me in front her friends at first but i felt so "Confident"
by this time i had the "you just wait and see" attitude.. i''ll show them all..................................--------------------..................
Y2K came and went................................................................ and so did my beliveability and trust in my marriage, i had a son
Jan 20. and had more important things to do still working as hard as ever i became blind,,,, numb,,,, and embarrassed at how my fears became
my wife left,, moved out and left me and my son to fend for ourselves,, and im sure it was because, in part, of my failure to have a "REAL" hobby, to
vent stress, instead i brought my stress home and made more stress in my family till everyone could "understand" why she left. (even my parents)
after 911,, i had a small vindication --- yea for me--- (with full sorrow).. my self esteem was shot.. and as the divorce went on,, Complete with
pictures of my bunker and gear,,,, the state told me i had to give up my son --- she was gone and pregnant with another mans son for about 2 years ,
and NOW i had to give up MY BOY,,,??
That broke me ... i ended up losing my business that did around $380,000 bucks that year.. my home went into forclosure,,, they reposesed my ford
explorer.. somebody stole my speed boat.. and couldn't care less...
I only blame my self, and thank God i didnt get all the neighbors on my street to follow in my footsteps.... i did try,,,,,,,,, it might have broken
up other familys as well ;;
please..... listen to me, the doom you might be feeling might be more localized to just you and ONLY you ,,,,,,as it became for me ..... i had to sell
all my stuff ,,, and lost the rest..... a true tragedy of mind and spirit.
i did it all to myself and ruined the privilege of security in a loving home..
this hard working husband/father/business owner would have this kind of pain ten years later, is my only warning, sure i did "get it together "
eventually... but the damage still goes on.....
im in a rental house and i pay my bills on time, but i lost much more then i was trying to SAVE.... fear grows like weeds, and can crowd out love and
destroy our lives ..... the only thing i have left is a AWESOME collection of flashlights.... and the smile of my son when he hugs DAD....
-----------------------------edit------------------- i wrote the above ,,9-24-09---------------
today--- learning life's lessons, as hard as i did... i just realized how prepared i am INSIDE my mind,,, so much so. it is not, just, the "jump-bag"
i keep ,, but it how i KEEP my head in the coming troubles, that will make the difference,,
edit on 3/27/11 by darrman because: satisfaction .... brings us back...