Ok, Here is my story.
For years I have felt out of place, I am one of those people who has felt rejected by society. I have been bullied, I have suffered heartache. I have
been ridiculed because of my appearance back then, I grew up thinking something was wrong with me. Thanks to my loving parents and their unconditional
love, I got the support I needed to keep going, to keep breathing. Just recently, I discovered I had a mild case of autism. While people think only
kids can get it, i did my own research, and it turns out i'm one of few cases that went noticed.
Being Autistic, perhaps gave me the window of opportunity to try and seek out answers, to questions. For five years, i suffered chronic depression. It
first came to light in high school, but Ironically it was also when I began to write a story.
After a heavy break up, I abandoned hope and hid from the eyes of society, and i submerged myself in the world of fantasy, a world where I could
control most of my actions. That's when I escaped into online gaming, and I lost myself deeper inside an online game called World of warcraft. It
wasn't till a year ago that I realized the world inside that game was not much different than the world outside.
I then heard of a website called 4chan and I became one of those poor lost souls with no sense of morality, but it was through there that I began
seeing the world for what It was. Through their gore threads, I witnessed reality, through their raid threads and invasions I witnessed their cruelty.
And I am guilty of being part of that. I laughed at other peoples expense, mostly because I was in pain myself. I became part of the internet hate
machine. Then I figured...what do I have in common with these people? We all felt rejected from society, but for some reason, i felt proud of them
when they attacked Scientology, or raided pedophiles and cat abusers and brought them to justice.
Depression actually got worse, and I felt a sense of desperation, I felt...like I was drowning in my own sorrow and utter loneliness. I had lost faith
In God, I had lost faith in humanity. I felt unmotivated. I began questioning...Why do I even exist if I am only a waste of space.
That's when I heard about 2012, and began doing research on it.
Saw a lot of videos from annunaki, nibiru, Mayans, But they all strangely had a connection to the government. Then I noticed a video of a blacked out
portion of google sky. Then I searched some more, and found the connection with 9-11 and illuminati. Slowly but surely my faith In God returned. I
always ignored religion, for some reason I felt that, it wasn't for me, however I still wanted to believe in God in my own way
I paused after this and began playing WoW again, but at the same time I began working on my novel again. Which has some of H.P lovecrafts lore in the
background. Lately I had this strange obsession with H.P lovecraft stories. Main reason for this is because I am naturally curious and I do question
things no matter how strange they seem at the time.
On another note during this timeline, I also looked for alternate treatments for my condition, I began using Cannabis to not only attempt to cure it,
but also help me relieve stress and work on my novel. I started to question, why is Marijuana illegal when it has soo much more benefits both
physically and spiritually. I already know the answer to that. Which makes me angry at the fact that we let people brainwash us. I guess Marijuana is
an example of the lies and deceit the government had upon us.
Then this year I noticed news reports of chemtrails, sudden deaths of birds, the million fish die out in the sea, I began piecing together events of
last year and this year. It wasn't till earlier, that I noticed a thread, that had the illuminati cards and someone managed to make a connection,
and in that thread i saw this post of a guy who made a prediction of the japanese earthquake. I was in shock...I am still in shock at what I saw. My
faith in God has multiplied, but yet I am so saddened at the events.
I have friends in California, I live in the carribean. My eyes are now set to see what happens to California I fear for the lives of my friends
especially my best friend.
There is one thing that strikes me, as I attempt to look at the bigger picture. Why have I been having these thoughts about the outer Gods, and why
was H.P lovecrafts story mentioned in the illuminati game.
[Quote]The players take role of Illuminati societies that struggle to take over the world. The Pocket Box edition depicted six Illuminati groups: The
Bavarian Illuminati, The Discordian Society, The UFOs, The Servants of Cthulhu, The Bermuda Triangle, and The Gnomes of Zürich. The deluxe edition
added the Society of Assassins and The Network, and the Illuminati Y2K expansion added the Church of The SubGenius and Shangri-La.[/Quote]
The call of c'thulu
Here is the connection I made, because I had a vision about this once and I remember dreaming about this Weird eye in the sky.
Pyramid /mason eye
This is one connection I did, the other connection was this. All the outer Gods had one thing in common. Corruption. I know this sounds crazy, but
maybe there is something there we haven't seen yet?
I sit here writing to you all i feel the ground rumbling feel slightly disoriented. I hope to have contributed at least a small portion and given
One last thing I will mention. When I was a kid, I dreamt of something across the sky, possibly a comet on the horizon and a lot of weird lights,
similar to the northern lights. And I live in the carribean. I bring this up because I saw a post last night about comet elenin possibly coming close
Thank you for reading and God bless. Keep up the good work, and pray that everything in the end will be ok in the end.
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