posted on Jan, 13 2011 @ 01:36 AM
I've noticed thier has always been a huge debate on Marijuana, legalization etc. along with all these other conspiracies around it, but what about
anti-depressants and other medical drugs.
I was diagnosed with depression at age 7 and although that was very young, I was always a fast thinking child that new my stuations around me unlike
most and was simply not happy with my normal existance.
At the age of 12, I was prescribed a drug called Zoloft to fix my "chemical imbalance", it didn't last long due to headaches, nausea, and insomnia,
and I continued on with my life. When I hit 16 they tried another SSRI cant remember the name as I wasn't on it very long and my parents took care of
it, needless to say that didn't last long either. I later learned that teenagers dont mix well with anti-depressants due to obvious issues with
hormones and the growing of the body and brain that is still going on. Thanks for telling me first
At the age of 18, I later was pushed by my parents to go see a doctor again, I was very against it, but they pushed constantly til I finally gave in.
After talking to my doctor he prescribed me with a newer drug, an SNRI called Effexor, started me at 34 mg and off I went, I actually felt really good
on them but still was under what most consider happy and they bumped my dosage up to 75mg which was the plan from the beginning. Again I felt great, I
never felt this happy just at life itself and couldn't help but smile which was something I rarely did then.
After 9 months of effexor things began to change, I started to feel depressed again but not the usual consistent way as before, I was having huge
moodswings, and when I got depressed it was to an extreme, I went back to the doctor and what did they do? well they decided it would be better to
double me up to 150mg, After that things started getting foggy I felt great at first again but my thoughts were fuzzy my memory was failing, and I
started getting major shakes, whcih really scared me and my parents, but everything was well according to my parents, I was quiet did my own thing and
didn't complain about anything, sounds great to them i guess, then things went majorly south, I was 19 now turning 20 and, my girlfriend of 2 years
and I started fighting, she left, and suprisingly I got more depressed, so now what.
The doctors decided it would be great to move me up to 300mg!, double the max pill size and supposed max dose, but nobody questioned it, as with the
150 but worse, I could no longer think straight, My memory was horrible, I was forgetting simple words, and started shaking uncontrollably like a
person on severe street drugs, or someone with parkinsons. it was horrible i felt like i was in hell and after 3 months became extremely depressed &
suicidal at all times. ended up in a psych ward and was given MORE pills, I was now on 300mg of Effexor and 150 mg of a mood stabilizer called
seroquel, I now can't believe how bad my memory was, and I barely remember the last year and a half of my life before I quit everything.
It all ended when i became suicidal and attempted taking my life 3 times, the first I ended up in a psych ward, the second I was an inch from death
and was rushed to hospital and they actually let me go home the same day ?wtf, and then the 3rd I fought a roomful of police officers who came to my
home after an "incident" got pepper sprayed oulled a knife, and had 3 guns pointed at my head. After a couple weeks in hospital i knew i had to quit
the meds, I wasn't myself at all and it was my last hope, my family was afraid of me and I was pretty much already dead to them.
I quit all my meds cold turkey, it was a month of hell, the pills werent addictive the doctors kept saying, but it was the worst withdrawals i had
ever had, it was like a 2 week long stretch of the worst hangover youve ever had, followed by 2 week of what felt like my brain being rewired, my
memory came back, I felt happy towards life, and had my thoughts back, and the shakes were gone, I went from 125 lbs to 165 in 3 months, and thats for
a person who is 6'0". I have never felt better, being clear headed and completely healthy with no meds.
I later found out that effexor was getting a bad rep, and had been liked to violence, memory loss, and many other issues which are easily findable if
you google side effects. I also found out that many doctors were being paid off by big companies and pushing thier drugs for profit, doctors were also
relying on pills instead of therapy to address underlying problems cause it was "faster".
So that was my experience and really stopped my trust of doctors or my will to ever be in a hospital again for anything.
My biggest question is, why is this allowed to continue? I've recently heard many stories similar to mine, and the fact that depending what you read
40%-60% of americans are being given anti-depressants, not just for depression but basically anything the doctors feel it will "help" them with.
Also then does it become a perfect mind control drug?, making people forget and become careless for the environment and people surrounding them, its
obviouslly very harsh not just from my experience but many others.
I now am very happy, am living very healthy, and ignoring almost any new trend that the government and/or doctors try to push on people to be healthy,
it also got me huge into the flouride debate and many other conspiracies