posted on Dec, 3 2010 @ 08:27 PM
My life as I knew it ended about 10 years ago. Up until that time, I had never had any responsibility that I "manned" up to. I was living in a
psychological hole, and wasn't aware of it. I was married at the time, to someone that I'd spent nearly half of my life with - and when that ended,
everything went downhill for me.
For three or four years, I was jobless, relying on my parents to provide me with enough to keep the power bill on. I was addicted to meth, and
actually arrested for the manufacture of it - for which I did time.
My "rebirth" happened sometime in 2001, I think, when I met the woman I'm married to now. I've no idea why she was attracted to me - I had
absolutely nothing to offer but companionship, and even that was lacking in sobriety. I had two kids from the first marriage, they were 'tweens' at
this time, mostly living between my house, my moms house, and their moms house.
This girl I met, was an absolute bitch to me. She didn't like my smoking. She didn't like my drug use. She didn't like my laziness, and she
reminded me constantly that I was living in a "black hole". She got pregnant. I got arrested (not because she got pregnant, she was legal). Too
much stuff happens at this point to go into any great detail, but after a year & a half with her, I went away for a year and a half.
When I once again re-entered society, I had nothing but the clothes on my back - the rest of my stuff had either been stolen or given away. Mostly
stolen. My house had been sold, and I lived with mom & dad until I had saved enough money to rent a place. We were poor. If it weren't for
government help, we would have starved...only this time I was actually trying, I did have a job. Me & the girl were still together, and the child we
had was nearly 2 when I got out. We were living in a 35 year old single wide trailer eating 3 dollar meals just to stretch our budget when I finally
made up my mind...or my wife made it up for me....oh yeah, I skipped the part where we got married, but we did that too. Courthouse, justice of the
peace style. "You need to start your own business" she said...over & over & over. "I'm scared to" I said. See...I didn't have much faith in
Finally I landed a job as a computer tech making a whopping $6.25 an hour. I saw this as an opportunity. I showed up early for work, worked late,
worked weekends, kissed customers butts - I made FRIENDS with them. One thing that I do possess in my favor is an almost unnatural ability to
diagnose & fix computers. Laptops...I can strip them to the bare frame & fix most anything with a standard soldering iron. And fast. Like...a 24
hour turnaround - now it sounds like I'm bragging and maybe I am, a little...anyway. For a year I worked at this place, I had written a
trouble-ticket program to keep up with customers names, numbers, job performed, and it printed out tickets and receipts...the manager loved it and we
used it everyday. I happened to win the favor of a gentleman who had a small vacant building next to one of his businesses. He told me the same
thing my wife told me. I said..."dude, I don't have the money to do that" - and he offered me his building first months rent FREE, AND said he
would loan me 1,000 if I would pay him back in three months. I said ok. I took my customer database with me & on day 1 started calling customers.
SIX months later, I had five full time employees and had just bought a brand new four bedroom house in the country. Six months after that I FIRED
everyone, and moved into another building across town. A year later, I opened up another business in another state and wound up selling the previous
one to a former employer of mine.
For the past five years now, I've not ONCE had to think about whether or not I would be able to pay the power bill, the phone bill, the water bill -
buy gas or groceries. We aren't rich, and as a matter of fact, we live almost like paupers. I work from home in a converted garage and rake in
nearly (on average) around 2 grand per week. I walk through a door and I'm home. I'm with my kids at all times, wife too.
I am content. I have a loving wife, loving children, absolutely no financial woes of any kind, and about 1,500 local people who trust me to get the
job done right whenever their computer fails. I meet new customers for the first time & they tell me that several different people have recommended
me, all having spoken highly of me.
We've instilled such values in our children, that usually whenever we go out, they insist that we buy toys to drop off into the donation boxes for
needy children. They are aged 7 and 5. To have a child begging for a toy is one thing, when they are begging to buy a toy for someone who might not
otherwise have one, is something completely different.
I could have done many things different in my life, that would have saved a lot of people a lot of pain. Once I realized the true potential of my
abilities, I stepped out and made my life into something a lot better than it had ever been. I could stop working right now, and without making
another single dime, continue living as I am for at least two more years - maybe more. That may not be saying much, but when you've been down to
scrounging for change in the couch cushions for money to buy a bag of the cheapest diapers the store has - it does mean something.
I love my life because I get to do what I excel at in one moment, and the next moment I can take a 15 minute break to step out the side door & toss
the ball around with the kids.
I live in an environment that is 45 minutes from the beach, and summer is 8 months out of the year.
There is sunshine, palm trees, and winters where the temp rarely drops below 45 F.
We don't drive the newest car - it's probably 13 years old or so - but it works fine, good mileage, and we had to save ZERO cents to go buy it
straight out. It's when you realize that the best things in life aren't really things at all, and the things you consider to be the little things
will later on be realized to have been the big things; that's when the understanding of what being happy is really begins.
While some of this may have seemed like a bragging session, it hasn't been. I treat everyone as equals until they treat me otherwise. Quite
frequently, I will fix computers for free. Quite frequently, I will make a donation to a school, or other local group engaged in what I believe to be
positive. I flaunt nothing. I don't want for much. I need for nothing. I love my life. I also love to see other people loving their lives.
I'm pretty sure this rambling mess of nonsense means nothing to anyone else but me, but it's MY life. I love it.