posted on Aug, 10 2010 @ 01:22 AM
First a brief history of my anxiety:
I have always had anxiety in certain social situations or when getting on an airplane (I do not like to fly) for as long as I can remember, but these
experiences with anxiety could be compared to the whole "butterflies in the stomach" feeling, but nothing more.
That is, until May of this year.
Sometime in mid-May I was at work. My job required both indoor and outdoor work. I went outside at around 4pm to do some work. It was around 100
degrees actual temperature. After about 10 minutes, I was predictably sweating and my heart began to race. For a brief second, I assumed the worst - a
heart attack - and that was all it took. My mind began to panic.
Ever since then, I have had anxiety attacks.
My anxiety attacks seem to come out of nowhere, but I have noticed that alot of the time I am paying too much attention to my breathing when they
begin. I am very conscious of my breathing ever since my anxiety attacks began. Breathing is almost no longer second nature to me; it is very
controlled when I am not completely distracted.
I have not been to a doctor about this yet as I do not have insurance and do not have the money to go. I do, however, have an anti-anxiety medication
called Ativan that was given to me from a family member. Up until this past Saturday night I would take a half a pill when an anxiety attack occurred.
But on Saturday I decided to be more proactive about it and take a regular dosage so that an anxiety attack simply does not occur.
With each pill I take, though, I begin to realize this is not the answer. I am not comfortable with taking pills; I am not comfortable with the
potential side effects. I do not want to resort to pills. I want to beat this anxiety on my own. But I simply do not know how.
So here I am, typing this thread in hopes that someone out there in the ATS membership who is suffering or has suffered from anxiety attacks can offer
any advice on how best to approach this, discuss any methods of treating or curing anxiety attacks without pills, or sharing personal experiences so
as to not feel so alone with this. These attacks have virtually ripped apart my life; I live in fear of them every day and night. I just want them to
Any help I can get would be much appreciated.
Thank you for your time.