Originally posted by bdb818888
reply to post by thegoodearthGod took my son, he was only 21 it destroyed my faith in God , I want that faith back , I pray and I pray but feel nothing, I'm dead inside . Maybe if I see a Demon it will restore my faith , because praying is not working.
Wow... that explains why you're so desperate to do this. But let me tell you this: God did not take your son. Unlike what you learn in Christian churches, God does not kill or maim people; God is pure love. I already explained to one poster the idea of each of us having a blueprint for our life that we ourselves have input on between lives, when we're in our soul state.
Imagine looking down on this blueprint/board game we call earthly life when you're in your soul state: you know it's all just a game; you know it's not serious because nothing can truly harm you since you're a immortal soul; you know it's all just for the experience. So you pick out some pretty tough challenges for yourself because... it's all just a game, after all.
Maybe you decide to get born in a family that's dysfunctional, even abusive. Maybe you decide you want a physical or mental handicap. Maybe you decide that you want a short stint and go back home (aka die) at the age of 5. Maybe you decide you want to live through teenhood but not adulthood and bug out at 21.
Your son may have been one of those old souls who just wanted to repeat the early part of life but not the whole she-bang. Now he's on the other side again, in his original soul state where nothing can hurt him.
You, on the other hand, might have picked -- in your soul state -- as a milestone for your blueprint the experience of having your child die before you. Those milestones are neither good nor bad; they just are. What you make of them is up to you... and that learning experience is your chance for emotional and spiritual growth.
Don't throw this chance for inner growth away by shaking your fist at God. Make peace with what happened and move on. I don't think your son would want you to put yourself (or your soul) in danger because of your grief for him. If he's watching from the other side, he'd want you to live happily and honor his memory that way.
