posted on Jan, 5 2010 @ 06:27 AM
Wow, I had never heard of that before, but yes I can talk about it.
I have spoken about my vision and experience before, of when I found the father(I'm not a christian, and didn't read the bible etc). I was
agnostic/atheist at the time.
In the manner I talk about spiritual and religious things today, it used to be that way with politics. I could see the spin and all the manipulation
of the world. I looked out at the world and I was distraught about what I seen.
How can this be so? Why is their so much evil in this world? What will it take before people wake up to the evil they are doing? How did such a
world of manipulation and lies take hold? I felt hopeless and helpless in many ways. Why oh why can't people just learn to live and let live.
Racism, extremism, people wanting power and control over others. And here I am stuck in the middle of it all. They go on about their lives happy
and don't even realize what they do in their ignorance. I could try to do that, pretend everything is ok, but in the end I can't ignore what I
I was thinking about it pretty hard that night, although this was something I had seen and known for years. I started to think about what the world
would need to be like in order to be peaceful and good etc. And then I started to see the 10 commandments. Do not kill, do not steal, do not lie
and so forth. But not with justifications for breaking them, such as war and so forth. And that only a society that follows this could ever be
"good", peaceful and free. etc.
And then within the blink of an eye I had my vision. I was instantly in what I can only describe as like the Matrix loading room. A completely
white "room", but "room" is a loose word because there were no edges to anything. And despite this, that which I see in front of me is even
brighter. I see a figure of a being that looks like it's made out of the sun - but it does not hurt my "eyes", as I have no "eyes".
I was asked a single question. "Do you want it to end?". And it was like a deeper part of me answered, and I was watching it. I didn't
"think" of the answer, it just came out. I said, "No, there is still good out there". Kind of corny, but what can I say. And then I could
see myself driving down the road the next day for a brief moment, and then I was back in my body.
At that moment, I knew the father and that the father was in me and had an understanding of the basics of spirit and flesh etc. John 14:20. On
that day, I knew John 14:20, but I had no idea John 14:20 existed until months later.
I did not "travel" however. These movements happened instantly.
At first, I thought I was going crazy. But I just couldn't get over the understanding and such that came with it. And that understanding didn't
stop with the experience. My entire perspective on things started to change. A few months later I started to talk about these things etc, and
then someone showed me John 14:20. I was like wow, I had no idea Jesus said that. And then the more I read Jesus the more I seen the
understanding I had gained.
And then Christians took a big dump on it, started quoting Paul and telling me none of that stuff mattered, I needed to believe instead that Jesus
died on the cross for my sins, worship the idol and so forth.
So I'm not a christian. But I know what Jesus is talking about and I know he did the will of the father. Gotta be the change yourself before
society can even think of doing it. As your very presence in the society makes the society impossible until it is done.
Never heard of it before, but it seems to match my experience. Although I was distraught, I had never really thought of it as being a "dark
night". I had been dealing with it for a long time, but the more I learned the "darker" it got, and that was certainly the darkest point.
Now I don't really worry about those things too much. I understand the reasons why and so forth.
In fact, I think it's really just a matter of how dark it will get, how bad society will get and so forth until people start to wake up and have a
similar experience/epiphany. That is what it took for me. I use to be blind, I joined the military and did all kinds of bad things. It was not
until I started to really see the evil of the world that I woke up. So, it's just a matter of what it takes for each and every individual before
they also get to that point. And once that happens - game over.
That is what I think revelation is all about. Things just keep getting worse and worse and worse, until people wake up. It means to reveal.
And all the events that happen in the world and when people start to see the manipulation is exactly what reveals it.
No clue how bad it will get before then, or when people will wake up. But it will happen one day. It is literally like waking up in hell when you
start to see things for what they truly are. The only real comfort is by that time you are somewhat use to it.
Even despite understanding and all that, I don't know that I can really say the darkness is lifted completely. I still have to see what the world
does and all that. I just have to keep in mind that things happen for a reason and such and that I can only do my part. So that kind of helps,
but I'm surely not in "heaven".
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