posted on Dec, 27 2009 @ 12:12 PM
Hi to each and every one of you ATSers! I do hope everyone enjoyed and continues to enjoy their holidays and I wish for all a great new year, a safe
Somewhere along the line I hope to be able to contribute to the many varied and wonderful threads and ideas and general Craziness and, dare I say,
some of your lives too! Can't predict if that will happen as I would want it to but I have been hanging around here with my eyes open and my mouth
closed for that long that I HAVE to join you, before it's too late (and no I don't confess to knowing anything ground breaking or prophetic) if
anything, I'm just happy that my spelling is kinda ok and I'm not insane yet - or am I?! Lol Lets find out: I was going to keep the following to
myself for a while until I could create my own thread but hey, I'm fickle.
The one singular important thing I have gained from this website and from reading all this new and insightful information is FEAR. I now have this
fear instilled in me that hits me unexpectedly and randomly but in one form quite specifically - Bataphobia.
I'm sure some of you have heard the term and maybe even have experienced it yourselves? Basically, it is a fear of tall buildings and that would
seem funny right? But, and I'm probably in the right place to say this, many of you will know how even the strangest or smallest Phobias can stop
someone in their tracks, completely disturb any daily routine or cause panic attacks and I'm let me say I'm no expert but it feels, from this
experience that a Phobia can hit anyone right out of the blue, any time in your life.
I've done a cursory search for phobia related forums, help groups and things but truth is, I don't want to join them simply because I feel like I'm
on a different page (from a lot of people now) with what I have learned in the last 18 months - I don't even think I'm here looking for help or
advice about this fear thing but I do feel it's good to talk about it, so apologies for boring anyone but like anything else you see (like the
"news") you know you don't have to read this!
Hope I can go into it a bit further in depth with you good people sometime if anyone shows any interest but for now I'll leave the subject alone -
for now, sooo please allow me now to commend all the members for their bravery in disclosing what you may or may not know to be true, for sharing your
knowledge, for staying strong in your beliefs when you know you are only a small, but growing rapidly, percentage of the population. This place WILL
drive you bat# if you let yourself soak it all in, not filtering, I know this now but I'm still here, quietly kicking and screaming and also happy to
add that there certainly are people, friends, family, co-workers who are willing to listen to me and add their thoughts on certain theories and not
look at me with that word Cuckoo running through their mind!
Anyhow, here's to the future - hoping to hang in there a little while longer because these are either very interesting times or everyone goes through
this same pattern in their lives and this is all nothing new. Sincerely hope it's the former