I must not fear.
Fear is the mind-killer.
Fear is the little-death that brings total obliteration.
I will face my fear.
I will permit it to pass over me and through me.
And when it has gone past I will turn the inner eye to see its path.
Where the fear has gone there will be nothing.
Only I will remain.
-The Bene Gesserit Littainy of Fear (Dune)
Fear is only in the mind. You already stood up to your fear and basically did what Jesus did when he said "Get thee behind me, Satan." Others may
not agree, but that's the lesson that I got out of that. Don't bow down to your fear. Master it. You are more powerful over your mind than you
believe. Our perceived victimhood is the result of the society we live in. Almost all messages that we receive are geared toward making us believe
that we need someone else to take care of us and all of our needs if we'll only give them the power to do so. I think this is the reason why Social
Security and the plight of the elderly is brought up and highlighted in every election, but that's a whole other topic.
Usually when I feel that I'm being watched (which is usually at night and probably just my imagination), I imagine myself surrounded by light and a
cross on my back. That may sound silly to some, but it helps me walk down the hall.
If it makes you feel any better, there are gemstones that you can carry or wear that are generally used for protection. The black stones such as onyx,
jet, and obsidian are good ones, and there are other colors as well. Again, the power of those may only be in the mind, but if if it makes you feel
empowered to carry them, it's worth doing IMO.
Also, I'd stop reading certain topics from this site and others like it along with doomsday, paranormal, and alternative news. Some things discussed
here can be frightening and stimulate an already over-active imagination. I'll admit that since I found this site that I've had several nights were
I had to sleep with the light on and then felt so silly the next morning.
Sometimes it's good to walk away from it all for a few days. Get out in nature and just appreciate life for what it is. It's all we can do. I think
that a sense of powerlessness is what feeds the fear. Power over our own lives is an illusion. Otherwise, none of us would 'allow' ourselves to die.
See what I mean? While out in nature, watch the animals. They aren't afraid (unless we frighten them). They're just living day-to-day and will
continue living that way no matter what happens to us humans. They will also be here long after we are gone. There are lessons to be learned from
observing nature. It's a shame that society deems such ideas as antiquated and silly and has turned our focus to the material instead. IMO, that's
why so many people's lives seem so hollow. Our ancestors knew what was really important.
[edit on 15-11-2009 by gazerstar]