posted on May, 18 2012 @ 11:20 PM
I came to this forum because of this topic. Let me explain.
I started meditating recently, my meditation deepened over time. A few nights ago, i kept awareness at moments in which i usually fall asleep, and my
dreams (usually completely absent) became so vivid that they could as well be called "lucid hallucinations". Acompanied by these dreams were moments
of seeing with closed eyes, but the dreams themselves are kinda like this. I will explain a little better, with no unnecessary details. The dreams
happened while I was conscious and seemingly still awake, i'm lying facing the wall, i see a spider on the wall, then i realize it's not a spider
but cracks in the paint (not the wall, just the paint), moving through different spots on the wall like a fast-motion video, the somehow the whole
wall become vibrating gray dots, which organize in clusters. Then i'm in my room, very lucid, very calm, i see what seems to be water reflections on
the wall, except they are from different colors, (there are also vivid city noises which seem to come from inside my head -almost like the weirdest
jazz music i ever heard-, and the rythmic, extremely loud, very deep, sound of my own heart beating). Then i wake up and find out i'm not sure wether
my eyes were closed or open. Later that night the same happened, i was somehow more tired and less conscious than during the previous dream, and at
the awaking moment i'm sure my eyes were open: there was a whirling mass of clay-like matter in front of me, brownish, separating in white and black
clay-like whirlpools, merging and separating again, rotating really fastly. I extended my arms knowning to be awake, to touch them, but they slowly
faded like it was an overlaid image in a b-movie, and i found myself in a very ridiculous position, my lips a little tense and my arms raised, haha.
My sight was different after that, like seeing through a PhotoShop filter (really), I checked this also by looking at my cellphone screen, everything
looked somehow altered (but i could function perfectly well), the effect faded gradually (i double checked this "gradually" claim) after some
minutes. It's worth to note that, i felt (actually i think I saw it with at the edge of my field of view) there was something of light-gray color
crouching under my desk during this "whirlpool" thing, but did not want to enquiry further as I strangely didnt think it was important -though I was
a little scared, for obvious reasons, before the dream-, (during the dream, i felt that feeling i get if there is an ugly fierce-looking dog passing
me by in the street). In between this "dreams" and in other nights, i happened to see the room with eyes closed, it looked always very dark, with
"blue"/"violet" shadows, and i could rotate my head freely, see everything, open my eyes (the first time without being sure they were closed),
close them again, make sure it's the same room, etc..
To be honest, i personally dont believe (respectfully) in most of the "astral" explanations. I take it as a side effect of meditation with no
particular importance. Regarding the visions of the room, chances are either it is a very vivid exploration of the last mental image of the room,
either it is a electro-magnetic frequency which we normally dont perceive and can pass through the eyelids, plus some imagination/fear. I didnt happen
to see any "live" motion, it would have been nice though. It's interesting to note that my state of wareness was not normal by any means, it's
always a "dreamlike" state, i'm aware/awake yet fully relaxed, and my mind does feel a little "different" from it's normal state.