Well, in all honesty I do not truly have an answer to your question. Why? I am only human, and I do not know. No one can, no matter how much they
say they do, they really don't, all they have is a belief, and belief is not truth. So understand the following is just my belief, and therefore is
not "truth" but only just my thinking, my beliefs, my organic brains way of trying to understand what is "consciousness" and being "conscious"
we look towards the question of what or who is "God".
I could be wrong
, but I believe that only "conscious" beings, think about "what/who is God". I don't believe that dogs, cats, horses, fish,
mosquitoes, moose etc sit around discussing who/what God is. Perhaps, they are the truly intelligent, and already know and understand the idea of
God. So have no "need" to question, and need only just "be".
I can look into my heart, and know that "harm none" is a perfect statement to how I feel about all life everywhere, be it plant, animal, energy or
some other form that I in my humanity cannot even comprehend to ask about, and so I follow the path that is most like my heart, my emotions, my
beliefs. Wicca suits me best, and I consider myself a solitary Wiccan, and believe in "Harm None".
Having been raised Christian, I find the idea that if you do not believe in a male personality that you will go to hell, to be incomprehensibly
?childish. No, childish is not the correct term, ego based? An "I" idea? Immature? Forgive me, I am not sure how to explain my thoughts here.
I don't believe that "God" is male or female, I am not even sure I believe "God" to be a combination of the human idea of female or male, but a
combination of "everything". God is .......everything..... not male, not female, not it, not neuter, but God is all of the above and more.
I don't even know if I believe that "God" cares about us one way or another, or if "God" feels such a separateness with us to even think about us
in such a manner. As if God is everything, why would God look at us as being separate and so listen to our prayers? Our prayers would be Gods
prayers, everything everywhere IS God. So every thought we have, every emotion we have, every movement we make, is already known by God, as it IS
God. We are a piece of God, everything everywhere is a part of God, which in the end, makes up the whole.
I guess, think of yourself thinking, questioning, living, loving, being, and then you just might, have a little more understanding of the workings of
"god". When you think, do you then say "I must answer that persons prayers"? No, it is just YOU being YOU moving through what we think of as
life. Though remember, this is just my thoughts on this subject, with an admittance that I could be wrong as I don't know.
, now I am getting a headache, is my brain on overload? Or growing? Or just a headache?
Most likely, just a headache, and I in my ego,
wanting to put a meaning behind it.
We as humans are trying to comprehend, label and box up, something that I believe is not possible for us to do. Though perhaps if we ever evolve to
use the full capacity of our brains, perhaps we can move a few steps closer to that comprehension. Though perhaps if we ever do reach the point that
we are using our full capacity, then we have moved into the realm of no longer feeling that separateness we now feel with God and with each other.
Meaning we would no longer have a need to add a label to what/who God is.
I don't know that I believe in an "afterlife" so to speak, I do not know that I don't believe it either, as if my thinking is correct,
"afterlife" is a return to being God. Not being separate from everything, but a return to everything, whatever "everything" in the end means.
I guess I don't believe that we can box up, label and put "god" into a box that says this is what god is. Because, god is everything, and how do
you put everything into a simple box with a simple label?
Anyway, this is what I think today about all this,
ask me tomorrow, and I might think differently. I am "just" human after all.