posted on Jun, 5 2009 @ 09:48 PM
I haven't read this whole thread. only the OP and first page but I wanted to respond because I take cymbalta and have also gone off cymbalta so want
to pass on what I learned.
First of all, I have suffered from depression all my life but managed without medication for decades, until I entered menopause. At that time the
hormonal fluctuations made it impossible to deal with so I started taking hormones and antidepressant. Now, about 15 years later, I have left hormones
behind and have changed antidepressants a couple of times, ending up with cymbalta about 3 years ago, which worked extremely well.
all drugs have side effects, including cymbalta, but the side effects seemed less horrible than being depressed.
about a year and a half ago, I decided to go off. I had changed many things in my life to the better and thought maybe i didn't need it. i felt
I went to half dose for two months, then nothing. Weaning off involved the brain zaps which are strange and scary and extremely poor judgment but
nothing too terrible until i went off completely. when I say extremely poor judgment, i mean about fairly small things. taking a route to get
somewhere that much worse than the one i normally did. spending money strangely, stuff like that. nothing disastrous. I knew that would pass.
when I went off completely I had total insomnia and extreme anxiety about everything and nothing. This went on for four months. I kept believing
things were improving by concentrating on one thing at a time but in fact my depression had returned and although I was not suicidal, I knew my life
was over and waited to die. the days and nights were endless.
eventually my son, a physician, recognized what was going on and asked me to fill out some symptom inventories. i'm sure you can find them online. I
did one for anxiety and depression and discovered that i had gone back to experiencing many of the things i'd suffered for years without quite
realizing it because I wanted to be okay and not need a drug.
Getting back on medication was a chore because it takes me a full 6 weeks to get the antidepressant effect, but my life has improved dramatically. not
perfect but much better.
I realize that you have fibromyalgia rather than depression but those are just terms that don't describe accurately. If cymbalta was helping you, you
have an inbalance it corrects. I realize that you went off involuntarily, but instead of seeing this drug as the culprit I urge you to go back on. I
realize you can't afford it. maybe you can take effexor, which is supposed to be similar and is generic. you can probably afford that one. I would
also urge you to check with the drug company to see if they would help you out with a supply. the commercials claim they do that! don't know if it's
be careful of all the people who will tell you about the evil drug. they might not have a condition that is helped by it, and they cannot possibly
know how miserable life can be without it, and how much your quality of life can improve with it.
my son said this: you might be able to eventually get to the point where you can get along without it, but you will spend a great deal of energy just
trying to cope with every day life. why spend all that energy if this drug can allow you to spend that energy on other things.
what people who don't have the internal problem don't know is that we aren't seeking a panacea, a cure for being blue. this is much worse.
fibromyalgia consumes your life. if cymbalta, or any other drug, can help you, TAKE IT! pay no attention to those naysayers. it's your life and you
deserve to live it as well as you can.