I'm Lauren Southwell ohh 311<3 reply to
post by daltoncullen
Hello friend (: Damn am i blown away to read this! Finally some validation so i know i aint just crazy!! haha and Trust Me, i know exactly what you're
talking about...
My dad was a pretty big 311 fan back in the day, that was BEFORE i was 'coincidentally' born on March 11, 1994. I never looked for a reason, or even
thought anything of it...ever since i can remember that simple number 311 has followed me. (or guided me) 50% of the time my eyes landed on any group
of numbers, 311 just happened to be there, in my face, plan view. My dad used to sing 'Love Song' -311) to me, that was pretty much the only time he
ever expressed how much he loved me & how special i was. As i got older, i started noticing the correlation between repeatedly seeing that number
literally EVERYWHERE I WENT & how it made me feel, what it meant to me.
Both my parents are pretty out their; all i'm gonna say is my dad lives on 40 acres of desert in nowhere, AZ. My mom is a content 40 year old DJ.
They both drink a good amount & they love to get high & express themselves, you have never met parents crazier than mine. & I <3 em for it.
My mom's advice for me has always been GO WITH THE FLOW of life. Always look towards the positives as i enjoy every day of my life, To stay true to
who i am. & As I grew up in such an open-minded environment I learned more & more about myself everyday. (i STILL don't even know who i even am let
alone what i wanna do with my life, but eventually, idk when, what, where...but 1 day I'm gonna make an difference) My mom has told me ever since i
was a little tot that i was a 'crystal-child' ...? Who knows wtf that means, my mom's crazy but WITH IT if u know what i mean. To this day I find
that a little weird way to describe me, but so far what she's told me been proven true so far, so i owe that to her. You can just tell she knows
things ya know? I would ask her "What does that mean mom? And what about Nathalie? (my older sister by 1&1/2 yrs) Isn't she your crystal-child too?"
And she casually replied: "Nathalie is special in her own ways, Lauren, but you have a gift. And sometimes it may feel like a curse, but you can use
this gift to a great advantage one day. You're extremely smart, and you have alot more to learn. Grow from your mistakes and never forget that there's
a reason behind every mystery in your life. Even the tiniest things you never pay attention to will have an impact on your journey one day... when the
time is right, you'll see the correlation, but for now just live your life doing what YOU want to do, enjoy the unknown, it can get pretty exciting.
Respect the flow. See where it takes you, ride that wave of life girl and learn to love what the universe has in store for you. Many people will come
in and out of your life, attracted to your energy & your presence of undying happiness, honesty & generosity, some may be thrown off or disturbed with
your intense energy, but they just don't understand in the moment, they may not be ready to appreciate you yet, But never look at the sense of
loneliness you experience in a negative way.. you'll learn to love being with yourself, sorting your thoughts and learning the miracles of the
synchronicity to come. Remember that every second of your life, you're where you need to be, even when it seems to be the worst hardship imaginable,
you're always in the right place at the right time. Nothing goes un-noticed up there. The universe is always watching over you & guiding you to where
you need to go, Good Karma always never fails & you'll be rewarded for your perseverance through it all. Just know you have something special to you,
everyone can see it in your eyes too, so keep up with your ever-growing potential to make positive impacts in lives, eventually in the world. Whether
directly or indirectly, one day you'll realize that you DID better this world. You may never know the lives you'll touch through the ones you saved.
So always give of yourself to those who you become associated with... you WILL amaze yourself at the impact you have on em without even trying. All
you gotta do let your smile shine & quietly appreciate all the little miracles that surround you, when you lose your way, just look around you &
notice the little things that will remind you of who you ARE.
I don't think anything special of myself, i wish i could say i'm living up to all my mom's HIGH hopes for me, but I have such a low self-esteem from
being so generous only to get walked on, used,& taken advantage of...but then i see 311 again, & i smile at the unknown, i can no longer deny the
evident synchronicity. That number aint no coincidence, it's just a quiet reminder to stay true to who i am (: & to keep giving of myself & spreading
my knowledge to those who are lost. It keeps me smiling (:

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