posted on Mar, 10 2004 @ 08:11 PM
The first step on the path to satori begins with the suspension of the Ego-self. It is only through this action that Freewill becomes a consciously
possible decision. Now I can just imagine that someone, possibly many, will be offended by the insinuation that he or she does not have Freewill.
However, what most consider to be Freewill is in fact not. You see, the Ego-self is nothing more then the desire for the preservation of a system that
consists of little more than the accumulation of past experiences relevant to the individual form. At an early age, one develops habitual tendencies
through the responses that he or she attains from specific behavior. These habits develop into what can be considered as an individuals personality
or base characteristics. If one performs a specific action biased upon habitual tendencies, this is not Freewill, but instead a deeply instilled
conditioned response. Raise a lever; receive a pellet....or a shock. We all shake as mice at times. Many think that they are free, but that is the
real illusion concerning Freewill. How often have you or someone else pointed out that you were displaying some sort of behavior that is typical
performed by a parent or someone that you have spent a great deal of time with? This is because when we are exposed to a recurring behavior performed
by someone that we see as having greater power than ourselves (i.e. parents, adults, childhood heroes, etc), we unconsciously mimic that behavior in
order to provide the Ego-self with more power to protect itself. The Ego-self continues to do this throughout its existence in order to propagate
itself with everything from desirable traits to attract mates to profitable behavior within a business environment. The problem is that we have
unconsciously conditioned ourselves by so many different sources (family, friends, environment, religion, government, education, media, etc.) and we
dont even realize it.
There is yet another way in which we tarnish any chance that we may have for Freewill. This can be seen when we believe that someone or something
other than ourselves has control over us. We shall first discuss the invalidity of externally control over feelings and emotions. I am sure that we
have all heard comments such as he/she has hurt my feelings, but how is it that an outside entity can have any control over something that is beyond
its reach. Emotions are internalized processes that can not be manipulated by an external source. In other words, when a person feels something it is
because on some level one wants to feel that way. We are our own victims without ever realizing it. We give other people control over us, we allow
them to harm us. There are many reasons for this. When we are children it is quite difficult to differentiate truth from lies within any semi-rational
boundaries. We merely believe what we are told because of good faith because it is what we are expected to believe, and so we often fall into the
trap of mistaking the perceptions of others as reality. Only you can define your worth because only you can create your worth. We are all capable of
much more than we allow ourselves to realize. You must remember the power to control yourself, your value and your worth are always yours. There are
only two things in this life that are beyond the control of your presence in existence: the fact that that you were born and the fact that you will
die. This is they way of form; the constant evolution of existence. True birth or death does not exist, only the Becoming. Existence is the Becoming.
This is because Existence is a constant state of transition. Absolute being is a solidified state that only takes up residence outside of time and
space (Essence), where as Existence is the realm of the becoming of form.
Most individuals reading this book will realize the truth in the concept we have just covered, but control over the self, in an external sense, seems
to be a more difficult idea to grasp. One can not be physically forced to do the will of another.
The only thing that an individual with Freewill knows that he or she must do is deal with the consequences of their actions. The consequences, that an
action or reaction brings into being, have no hold on its origins because time moves forward and not backwards (as far as we within existence are
concerned). In other words, the ends only exist because of and after the means have been performed and therefore do not have any control over the
means. Now do not mistake this purer structure with that of one involving a goal. A goal is a stipulation that one places on the action in order to
achieve a desired outcome. Goals are merely illusions of thought because they do not exist in Absolution. It may sound like I am contradicting myself,
but you must remember that up to this point I have only discussed things in detail pertaining to Existence. Both the Ego-self and Freewill can
manifest themselves within Existence, but they can not do so within Essence or what I call the Neo-Absolution because form and concept only exist
within existence. These are concepts that I will come to much later.
There is however a larger problem; we are not the only ones conditioning ourselves. We are conditioned by society through culture, religion and
education for the purpose of continuing an established system. Whether the imposed conditioning of a system is conscious or unconscious varies through
what individual is performing the conditioning. For instance, culture is an unconscious conditioner because it is based upon the acceptable norms in
relation to traditional beliefs; this is a habitual behavior. The established religions, although they may have been based upon a longing for a purer
truth during theyre conception, exist as a pious hierarchy where one individual can be seen as infinitely purer and as pertaining more value than
another. This is a prime example of a system that possibly started or grew from a conscious conditioner, but was accepted with such unquestioned
belief and faith, even by those in highly esteemed positions, that it has become an unconscious conditioner. The general education of a society is a
bit more complex. Assuming that the information being taught is historically and universally correct (in the sense that it is not manipulated to
comfort or farther the future of a particular society or idea), the real factor is the educators objective. Sometimes one teaches only the knowledge
that they want to be known, sometimes the knowledge of things that are both true and untrue because they simply do not know any better and sometimes
one teaches what they have sought out to be true. This is both a mixture of conscious and unconscious conditioning. The human mind has been
conditioned to fit into a peg & slot game for the reason of perpetuating any number of belief systems.
So should we condemn everyone and everything that may have conditioned our behavior; that may have caused us to be untrue to ourselves? No, of course
we should not. What we need to understand is that most of these individuals or systems perpetuate their beliefs because they honestly believe that
they are the truth. Neither the parental unit nor a particular culture nor any specific religion is the originator of the belief systems that we live
with today. They are merely passing along the information that has been relayed to them by other sources. Like any rock dropped in a pond, each
repercussion to the preceding action is similar, but slightly mutated. What it is that we must strive for in the search for ultimate truth is the
first reverberation of a stone thrown into the pond. This is because, in our present state, we can never exist as the actual stone, but instead only
begin to comprehend a symbolic representation of the stone through its impact on existence. To exist as the actual stone would be to exist outside of
existence and such a thing is not possible. This first reverberation is what I often refer to as the Original Echo. This is the first sign of an
impact upon the waters surface. It is birth of Existence. This is the furthest that we can achieve through the forms that we hold.
Now I am sure that there are individuals out there who believe that they have Freewill because they have fought against the system and its
conditioning all their lives. This is not Freewill because the structural basis of this new system is nothing more or less than the exact opposite of
the old one. The most glorious skyscraper constructed on a dilapidated foundation will not prosper. The individual that rebels or deviates from the
norm is ostracized and penalized. This is how the systems beliefs are enforced, by the fear of being powerless and rejected from its group mentality.
A perfect example of this lies in Christianity with the figures of God (the system), Jesus (the rewarded follower of the system) and Lucifer (the
punished individual rebelling against the system). Jesus and Lucifer are equally important to the system because they both enforce it. One as an
example of the rewards bestowed upon those perpetuating the belief system and another that is used as an example of the punishments pertaining to the
rejection of the systems beliefs. The strange and interesting thing is that the system needs a certain small percentage of its mass to rebel from its
structured beliefs because it instills a type of fear factor within the rest of the systems population that helps to ensure their cooperation. These
Jungian like archetypes of God, Jesus and Satan are extremely common in many belief systems.
This however is merely the first part of the problem concerning the illusion of freewill. What it is that we have been discussing thus far in this
chapter is Freewill in its relevance to the past. Now it has come time to discuss it in relevance to the future. The future is set, not because it is
preordained, but because it is being set every moment in the long progression of moments. As I have stated earlier, the only thing that you have to do
is deal with the consequences of your actions. Every action causes a reaction like a further ripple upon the water. Destiny is only a reality in so
much as it is based on the actions of the past and the decisions that we make within the current moment. Only you can create your destiny in a fashion
which you chose, but this can only be achieved when one realizes that they have freewill as per the definition that I have given it. One can not
change the past, but when one is aware, the future can be manipulating by changing the now. You see the future is only set because we are constantly
creating it with everything that we do.
Let us speak of actions and reactions. Action is a motion of an offensive nature because it has the ability, although rarely realized, to begin and
end with itself. Reaction is a motion of defense; it is in response to something that precedes itself in time. Therefore a reaction is constantly
subjected to the will of that which it is in fact reacting against. I have often heard it said in certain martial arts that the movements performed
are not meant to be actions, but instead reactions. This is because these same types are taught with the purpose of only being used for protection.
While this makes some logical sense, being that a reaction is often faster then an action because an action is a calculated thought where as a
reaction is more of a self-preservation instinct, no ground can be gained by playing the part of a brick wall. Eventually something big enough will
rumble through a wall that has no ability to change and progress.
The conditioned mind reacts because it is not free; it is confined by its own desire to be controlled because of its learned feeling of hopeless
dependency. Here we can see that the conditioned mind is like a vessel set adrift in the turbulent ocean of fate; it has little or no control over its
destiny because of the forces acting upon it. However, freewill carries with it the ability to control ones own actions because it understands that
it is not confined to simply reacting to a situation. But how is it that I can claim that freewill and destiny or fate can exist in the same realm? If
freewill can produce conscious, calculated actions and fate is the final result of a series of actions, calculated or merely reactionary, then a
specific series of calculated actions can produce a desired final result.
There are two things that are necessary for the construction of fate: freewill and something that I call FTA or future time analysis. FTA is the
ability to predict future events by way of the intricate interaction between certain factors. I will explain each of these in turn.
Extended Mathematical Probability: I am confronted with a decision: A, B or C. If I chose A then the action of my choice opens up the possibilities of
D, J or P from happening. If I chose say J, I am led to the choice of R, X, or Z. This idea is most easily seen in the game of chess, as I have often
heard that a wise player always thinks three moves ahead. What I am suggesting is that the last move, the desired one, is seen first and then worked
back to the current position in time for that player. Now when the process is looked at in this way, there is a multitude of possibilities in the way
of paths that can occur. This is why the mathematical probability of each stage of the occurrence needs to be cross referenced with other factors, to
cut down on the immense amount of mental processing that one must do to achieve the desired results.
Analytical Observation: This refers to the observation of the current situation that one is confronted with. Take another person for example, this
individuals current emotional state, the muscle structure of facial expressions and general movements are all important in fully understanding that
given situation. For example, it is easy to tell the emotional disposition of an individual without a word ever being said. How many times have you
asked someone what was wrong before they told you that there was a problem in their life? It is because of their physical expressiveness. This is
where we can predict the reactions that will come about with a persons specific physical/emotional state because of the attributes that are generally
attached to any specific emotional state. These are such things as aggressiveness when ones brow and jaw are tightened or vulnerability when one is
looking down or tense and nervous when one is holding ones self in an uncomfortable position or cant stand still.
Historical Knowledge: Since the conditioned mind is a creature of habit, the actions that have occurred before, under a similar situation, are likely
to happen again. This is the problem with conditioned mind; it is hopelessly stuck in a cycle until the gears burn themselves out. And when they do
freewill is still not discovered, but instead merely a type of opposite reaction. This is what I call the Pendulum Effect. It is when one is feed up
with the results of ones reaction to a certain situation and so decides to produce the opposite reaction, from what one was originally doing, in the
hope that one will also produce the opposite of the result that they originally procured.
It is here that we can finally see the process of conscious actions in evolution. This is the path of freewill that must be traveled in order to
control ones destiny. For the future is, through your hand, on a direct route to the sun.
It is here and only when we are free of our conditioned pre conceptions of the past and future that we can live in the moment. because the moment is
the only point at which we exist in time.
The notion of the past and of the future are abstract concepts; they will never come or go because when they do they are no longer themselves. Only
the here and now exists within existence, the current moment. Never the less, the past and future are important because the Ego-self bases the current
moment on them and vice versa.
Now that I have shown how the typical human sense of Freewill is an illusion, I imagine that you are wondering how it is that this illusion can be
broken. First and foremost, the illusion must be recognized for what it is an untruth. One must discover their own conditioning and overcome it, to
rethink their behaviors with a newborn mind. I know that this sounds impossible and for those that have become hopelessly dependent on the lies for a
long period of time, perhaps it is, but I have know a few individuals that have transcended their own conditioning. It is possible when the will is
strong enough. One must unlearn what they have already learned in order to find the path to becoming an Original Echo.