posted on Jul, 21 2008 @ 02:27 AM
The easy answer to the puzzle of the serial killer is a bad childhood. Although we do imprison or execute them, public opinion often still allows them
to escape some of the personal responsibility for their actions. "Poor thing, he was abused. Not surprising he turned out that way.."
I'm here to tell you there's more to it than that. If there weren't, I'd be a serial killer. I'd prefer not to go into details for two reasons.
One, it isn't really necessary and may upset or offend some people, and two I'm using my real first name here and I'm not that hard to
find/identify if someone really wanted to. If you just HAVE to know, U2U me and I'll list the forms of abuse I survived. Let's just say I attempted
suicide more than once, have been officially diagnosed with PTSD, tortured my mother's pet animals as a child, had a fascination with fire, and was a
social outcast and loner from kindergarten on. I can't find it now, but somewhere I saw a list of "10 signs of a serial killer" and I had 8 of
them. The two I missed were that I didn't wet the bed and I'm not male.
That said, I'm here to tell you that I've never in my life (and I'm 50 now) intentionally harmed a human being. Oh, I've pulled a few pranks ..
once I had a 1/2 ton of fresh manure delivered to a guy's front lawn an hour before he was throwing a huge party. Yep, he ticked me off. But I've
never even hit anyone other than to administer discipline to a child. I know how to use a gun and I'm quite good with one, but I've never actually
even pointed a gun at a human being.
Why not? I'm not sure I really know. I have had thoughts about killing people, and in younger days even played out fantasies in my mind of killing
someone. But I don't have it in me to carry through, I just can't really hurt anyone. I'm sure I could in self-defense, but I haven't ever been in
Violence was done to me, more than once, but instead of accepting it and passing it on, I chose to reject it and avoid it. And, barring mental
illness, I believe that every other human being, whether abused or not, had that same choice and could have chosen not to commit violence or murder. I
won't pity them and I won't excuse them.
However, I am still a loner and I don't - in general - like people. I'm basically anti-social, never have many friends, and even at 50 I struggle
with social skills and 'fitting in.' I'm impatient, sometimes rude, and have problems 'connecting' with people or having long-term relationships.
All things that are likely shared by some of the murderers you're discussing, but none of them are a good reason to go killing people.
By the way, I don't expect any pats on the back or anything like that. I'm asking you not to 'make allowances' for serial killers because they
were abused, or neglected, or whatever. They didn't HAVE to turn to killing and violence regardless, and they should be held strictly accountable for
I'm sure there are hundreds, if not thousands, of people like me who suffered horrible childhoods and didn't turn out to be serial killers, so in my
opinion a 'bad' childhood is no excuse for becoming a killer.
It would be interesting, though, to identify the factors and be able to figure out what does make someone a serial killer. Obviously we've identified
some of them, but I also believe we're missing one or two, since not everyone who has all the factors we've identified becomes a serial killer.