posted on Jun, 17 2008 @ 12:43 PM
reply to post by awakened sleeper
I Really needed this post awakened sleeper. Thanks for sharing your thoughts.
Without going into details (not necessary in my opinion) I agree a lot of things talked in this thread. Its important to keep talking about this
subject since it will bring a lot more people facing reality, as I believe.
Shortly explained what I'm conserned of in all this; today I was more frustrated than ever with the feeling that world is not what we see. Thinking
of your post, allowed me the first time to reach something I've never reached yet. I tried (again) to relax and eventually I felt like I would have
been pushed through some soft membrane and... I got frightened and rejected everything.
Shortly afterwards, I felt like everything was too present, almost like pushing towards me. I had to go outside and have a little walk and breath some
fresh air. The thing I experiaced outside, actually made me to share these feelings. I felt somehow dizzy, but at the same time I felt like everything
was very present. Fightening feeling turned into joy. I felt like everything in the range of my sight and hearing was close to me and it felt
wonderful. To be exact, I felt pure joy in everything.
The experiences today led me to the most profound question that has actually been bothering me a long time; I have always been eager to feel the
presence of the spiritual world (yes, I believe in it) but also, I have always been afraid of it. Do anyone have this kind of feelings? Please share
your thoughts. I think I'm afraid of losing the control of myself or that eventually I will realize something that makes me loose my mind, make me
more afraid or something. Is it very common or am I alone with small minority with it? Actually being unafraid of the unknown might be uite hard for a
lot of people.
I cannot consider myself as awakened, I feel that I'm not ready or something and thats only becase I'm afraid of it. As i said, I believe we are
connected to something greater and scientist way of trying to understand it might just fail eventually.
p.s. I'm not speaking or writing english as a native so if anyone feels that I stepped on your toes, its most likely because I have not been
expressed myself clearly