posted on Feb, 29 2004 @ 02:27 PM
I see the mods have removed alot of posts from this trhead. I'm really appalled at this! WTF?!? I hope I don't get flamed for what I'm about to
I know exactly what you are talking about, Valedamar. What I've found is that when you are a teenager with 'unknown' abilites, things start
happenning when you get upset. This, I believe, comes from the helplessness that a kid feels when you know you can't really do anything about a
situation. The frustration builds up and you start to think somewhat 'irrationally', in a sense. Basically you are being completly rational, but
there's things being tapped into in your head out of desperation to take care of a situation. That is why alot of these things seem random.
Ok, so now that you are aware, try tapping it without anger or frustration (I know it's hard... U2U me if ya want and I'll tell ya all about my
teenage years. Messed up story with stepmom involved and everything). One of the first excercises you can do is find something unbreakable and set it
on a shelf in your room against the wall so it cannot accidently fall off. When you are laying in your bed at night thinking about stuff and can't
sleep, see if you can mentally nudge the object off the shelf. Keep it up until you can make it with a single nudge, but don't try to do this in one
night. It will take time! This will help you to control the TK part a bit better.
After that, work on directing your anger towards a 'bottle' in your head. I know it's not healthy to bottle stuff up, but it's even more unhealthy
to be destructive. The trick to bottling is when you get to, just uncork the bottle a slight bit and analyze what made you mad and why and alot of the
time you will realize that you felt alot angrier at the time than was necesary. This is very important to do! If you cannot control your frustrations
and angers, you cannot control anything that happens to you! Whenever someone makes you mad, you have to learn to grit your teeth and calm down...
take a second and rationalize. Think about what the actions of you blowing up would have on everything, including you. I wish you the best in this...
it's a hard road, but necessary to reach your destination.
About feeling people's energy: heck yeah! It's so hard to describe what it feels like. You basically feel with your mind. your skin doesn't feel,
but for some reason there is a signal in your head that kinda makes it seem that way. That's really the best that I can think of.
One of my tricks is that I realized that I could feel people's energy (being able to see a person's aura helps) and I figured out how to better
control my own. I could literally walk up behind someone and breathe down their neck and they wouldn't realize it! I haven't done it so long though
that all I can do now is just sneak up on people. What I am doing is pulling my energy inside and concentrating on letting it flow straight up and out
through my head so that others cannot feel it radiating from me. I was able to enhance this greatly when I learned meditation excercises concerning
the cleansing of the shakras. This excercise is where you oncentrate on each shakra from the bottom up, releasing the tension and energy to the next
shakra, until you reach the top where you release it all.
Concerning the ladybug: that may have been a fluke, maybe not. If you have alot of angst (sounds like you were about the same as when I was that age)
your energy can actually make others in close proximity around you sick. A girlfriend of mine when I was 17 used to complain about me burning her when
I was angry about something. My skin was normal temp, but when she would touch me she said it felt like a VERY warm stove burner. Sometimes it would
leave red patches on her similar to what you get when you spill hot water on yourself. Again, this can be controlled by simply controlling your anger
Consider this an enlightenment, and continue to, at the very least, keep up with it throughout school. I wouldn't let too many people around you know
about it though... maybe your very closest friend. I found that most people will just try telling you crap like "aww, it's just a teenage thing...
you are confused and looking in desperation for anything... any answer you can find". That is such BS. Don't argue with them, just take it and walk
away. Ignorance IS bliss, and if you try to prove yourself to unbelievers, the situation may turn really bad. Avoid anything that may get you a visit
to the shrink or any other type of 'mental programming'. This will only make you into a mindless drone like the rest of society.
Work on it, hide it from the ignorant, and good luck to you. It's a hard path, but the payoff is beyond all the riches here on earth! You will have
understanding of things you could never begin to discuss, even on a board like this.
One last thing: Have any friends that are similar in abilities? Form a mental bond with someone. It's like having them with you wherever you go. I
believe humans are supposed to be like this, but religion has hindered and depressed these connections. It seems that the only people who are
'allowed' to have abilities like this are 1) prophets, or 2) poseesed by evil spirits. That is just a little prewarning that you may or may not
Again, best wishes to you, and enjoy your newly opened world! No boundaries!