I didn't really want to write this here but I need to get it out of my system.
About a year and a half ago, my friend introduced me to a girl, who met her through a band fansite. We started talking and we got on really well,
almost as if we had known each other all our lives. I suddenly thought, "Man, this is weird. She meets my friend through a fansite who then
introduces me to her! Fate must have a hand in this..." Anyway, we were practically best friends for about a year and we had strong feelings for
eachother, but we lived about 50 miles apart and weren't sure whether to become an "item".
After a few weeks, I find out she met some guy and they were together. I was so pissed I couldn't even talk to her in fear I'd say something I'd
later regret. I get a text message a few days later saying something along the lines of, "I've been a complete idiot. I'm sorry. I Love you." So,
being the fool I am, I accepted her apology and surprised her on her birthday a few weeks later by going to where she lives "out of the blue". That
was the day we decided to start a serious relationship, which lasted about three months. She ended it because she couldn't deal with the fact that we
couldn't be together every day etc.
She told me she still loves me and I stayed at her house last weekend to try and get back together with her and assure her that we'd see eachother
enough, just not as much as she'd like. We had a really
good weekend. We acted like any other couple would; hold hands, kiss, etc. The last
night was the best, (if you get what I mean
) and I asked her if she wanted to "start again". She replied, "No, because I don't want to have to
be careful of what I say to or think of other guys. But, i'll always love you and we can try again at a later date. I'm still young, I just want to
have fun while I can."
I really didn't expect her to say that at all. We were so close and in the end she's willing to throw that away for some "fun". Anyway, I found
out the previous guy she was seeing cheated on her and she came crawling back to me. I've also just found out that he is taking her out for a drink
tonight (Saturday) to say, "Thank you", because his girlfriend broke up with him and my ex had helped him get through it.
I know exactly
where this will end up and it makes me sick. I know exactly what his motive is and I hate him more than words can describe. She
can go and make the same mistake and this time I won't be there to help.
Sorry for ranting but I really needed to get it out.