posted on Aug, 28 2019 @ 08:19 PM
originally posted by: Night Star
a reply to: Finspiracy
Could you ask for another clinic Doctor? It won't do you any good if you have difficulty understanding her with her thick accent. I am happy to see
you so determined and going through the proper steps to reach your goal. Hugs!
I have thought about asking for another doctor, but it really doesn't matter that much. She just prescribes me the meds and checks that my blood
samples are ok, and that is all i need from her. I now have 1.5 months to gather strength and then talk to the health center doc. She speaks perfect
About 3 weeks now with the new med. Got hammered once and it just didn't work for me. I never party, drinking is all about killing the pain, that's
why i binge drank once during this three week period. There has been a few days i had a sixpack of beer. (0,33 litres each, sorry for not converting
into imperial system but i am just dumb that way, i always fail that. How hard can it be? I have googled things like x litres in x gallons, time in
Rhode Island, and i always get it wrong and you fine people have to correct me
) And i have actually been able to drink 1 or 2 or 3 beers and stop
there. That has never been the case before.
And lastly: This might seem like determination, but it doesn't feel like it. What this feels like, is that i have been a problematic drinker for about
22 years, been lost with myself and this world around me, and i just can't afford to lose anything anymore. I don't worry about the money spent, not
one bit. I would have spent my tiny income on something anyway. What i worry about is losing mom, and mental health, most likely some physical health
too. But i walk a lot, and i walk fast, maybe that helps a bit. Living in a rollercoaster has just left me dizzy and weak, now i am aiming for a
smoother ride, peace of mind and harmony between myself and the universe.