Yall think I don't realize how #'d up it is?
Does it look like I'm lost in a great delusion?
Hahah I wish...
I know I'm talking to no one. I know.
If she cared she wouldn't do me like that.
If it was even her....
Who knows who cares who it is?
There's never an answer.
There never was.
It's just a deafening silence...
So what if I Love a Ghost?
So what if I don't fit in anyone's box?
No one fits in my box.
No one matches my expectations.
So I let it all go.
My expectations wash away...
I'm breaking Free.
I do what I want, and I feel what I want about anyone I want.
I express what I want when I want.
I lost everything in this life.
I lost my kids, my dignity.
For what? For nothin!!
But one thing no one can strip away from me is my Spirit. I'm Me and I wouldn't have it any other way.
I know that woman is cruel to me.
You see that stuff she said a few pages back? How she hit and ran back into the shadows? What kind of # must flow thru her twisted mind to write that
to me like that??
I know she lost her Heart Mind and Soul to something horrible. But who didn't? There is no perfect person.
I'm content loving a Ghost thru the smoke and mirrors. Sure, I wish it was real, I wish she was real and holding me, but I have to decide what's best
for me and what I'm comfortable with.
I don't bother her.
At all in any way.
It's up to her...
And look what she chooses to do.
Haunts me. She haunts me.
Reduces me to ashes.
I guess that's what God wants for me. Oh well.
I'll always be Me and no force in the Universe will break my dedication or Faith in my Spirituality.
I refuse to hate, and I'll always Love.
I'll throw my Heart away into a blender and then set it on fire if I want.
My Choice, my Heart, my Right, my Life.
I'm Me. Deal w it.
I never felt like more of a badass.
I never had more fun.
I never been more True to Me.