I'm a bit perplexed.
Like I'm in my 40's and really life is just no fun anymore.
Like I was thinking about it today. Here's what I was thinking:
1-10 - Life is constant fun
11-20 - Mostly fun with stress creaping in
21-30 - Still a of fun but a lot of stress starting to appear
31-40 - Moments of fun mixed with boredom, stress, worry and problems
41 50 - Getting to the point where fun is non existant. Life is nothing but stress to the point where you where giving up could be a good thing.
50- 60 - What??? A struggle to survive? I don't know.
Like I'm not saying life should be all about fun. But serious, like half the time I have really nothing to live for. Like life seems to pointless.
And trust me, I've read all the motivation books, videos, audios etc. But it's still really hard to get all that excited about very much for very
long. Like already life is nothing but an exercise in frustration half the time. And I know I maybe shouldn't be saying that.
But it's hard to just dismiss what life seems to be dealing you. And "hopefully things start to get better". And they will "get better soon". I
keep telling myself that over and over again. And I keep trying but I'm just not happy anymore at all about very much.
I tend to think it's my age. Like in your 40's you slowly realize you're not really young anymore. And so what are you? Anyway I don't know where
I'm even going with this. And I hate to throw it out there to you guys. I just was hoping I'd maybe get some advice that might help me because I'm
really struggling. I think I'm possibly a bit bi-polar at times or something. I'm sort of an artistic type and based on everything I've read I know
that I seem to live out my life on both emotional extreme plains, hi's and lows'. Not always but often.
But still life isn't even too bad right not in many respects but still I just can't seem to figure out any way to have fun anymore. I think I use to
have fun doing online gaming. (video games). Even though they're an epic waste of your life, still anything that can bring some fun into my life I
need it desperately. I just need something to keep me going at this point.
Any ideas you might have would be of great help. (*also sorry but I'm not gonna get on prescription drugs or go see any psychologist okay. I'm
totally against all that. So please don't suggest anything of that nature. Thank you.)
Anyway, ya I just wish I could figure out my life to where it makes more sense, and I'm happy again.