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originally posted by: droid56
I f****d up on many levels. Looking back from my present understanding, I am amazed at how stupid I was.
But it's way too late to do anything about it.
I wonder why I was so stupid back then. Were there forces directing my emotional energy, and in particular my sexual energy, in a dysfunctional direction? Maybe.
When will I no longer feel the embarressment of knowing I am nearing the end of a failed life? I know I'm not the only one, but damn!
If there's reincarnation, I guess I get another chance. If there's nothing, then good. Let me disappear.
Negative events of the past can make it hard to live in the present. Troubling memories can make it hard to sleep or get through the day. There will come a point at which you must let go of the past or it will define your future. And yet, we always carry our pasts with us in the ways we think, talk, and perceive the world. Managing this can feel like a tightrope walk without an end in sight. By taking things step-by-step and keeping your mind open, you can come to accept your past as part of yourself. You can leave behind the negative habits that have kept you tethered to unfulfilled dreams and broken promises.