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originally posted by: muzzleflash
The only thing I really want is
1) to see my children again.
2) an intelligent, kind Hearted, beautiful, artistic Woman to basically pluck me from my loneliness and go on a wild romantic adventure with around the world.
So we can express our passions productively and try to live that fantasy. Something like that.
Don't get me wrong, I don't ever expect to find her anymore. I'm so traumatized at this point I doubt I could have any fun for awhile anyway.
I need Healing desperately. I'm completely damaged. I don't see it ever happening.
This is me, everyday now.
originally posted by: Metallicus
As far as your number 2 you cannot expect someone to save you. You need to make yourself amazing and have someone want to share in your passion and success.
I wish you luck.
originally posted by: Timely
God speed getting a miracle muzz.
Maybe you need to find some kind of religion to suit yourself.
Dwelling on your woes will not help, nor will sympathy. It sounds like you need to dust youself off and
get on with life, a life that you choose for yourself.
I mentioned religion as you suggested a miracle is what is needed. You will find people who do care and will help
get you through dark times, maybe even moments of joy and hope.
originally posted by: chr0naut
a reply to: muzzleflash
Help someone else.
Lift them up. Bring them happiness and joy.
I don't expect anyone to care. No one has actually so far, why would they now? I'd think it was fake, a mask, just something they say to feel better about themselves. I would doubt it's sincerity...