posted on Apr, 14 2015 @ 01:13 AM
I would like to thank-you for being willing to relive such clearly painful memories for discussion here, thus opening yourself up to all manner of
commentary (both pleasant, and less so.) I hope it was also perhaps somewhat cathartic for you, as it's clear this is still a wound that hurts very
Firstly, and most importantly in my opinion, I'm profoundly sorry for your grief and the pain this experience caused you. The loss of a loved one,
especially one as close to you as it sounds like he was, is possibly the single worst thing about being a human being living in this world. There are
such losses I'm still not over, and doubt I ever will be, so you have my heartfelt compassion for what it's worth.
As to the other aspects of this case, as ever, I strive to be an open-minded skeptic. I'm open-minded because I have had direct, personal experiences
for which no satisfactory mundane explanation exists thus far, and for which I too have been subjected to ridicule and assertions of mental illness at
times. (Not helped by the fact that I'm on the autistic spectrum, so people are always already looking for a psychological or neurological angle to
everything I do or say unfortunately.)
So the last thing I want to do is make an insensitive suggestion or assertion about something so traumatic and painful for yourself and your family. I
would never do so, because without proof, a skeptic should never make assertions. I would however at least raise a possibility or two, in addition to
the hypothesis you're exploring.
It doesn't take a large lesion to invoke hallucination. One does not have to be suffering advanced or even at all evident effects of a progressive
neurological disease process to experience vivid, elaborate hallucinations. Take temporal lobe epilepsy for instance. It is capable of inducing
profound, lengthy, bizarre hallucinations, many of which do actually bear the hallmarks of semi-typical alien abduction narratives. Floating,
suspended or slowed down time, beams of light, and more complex hallucinations such as beings or telepathic communication. Yet TLE can happen with
even the most minute of lesions, often not even detectable on imaging.
So while I'm by no means asserting that this is or must be the case, rigor demands we at least consider the possibility that he could have been
developing this condition for far longer than anyone knew, and that even in its most miniscule stages it may have been sufficient to bring about
dramatic hallucinatory experiences. Or to invoke sleep disturbances (hypnagogic states, sleep paralysis, sleep walking, vivid dreams, etc.) which
might have accounted for what, to him, subjectively, seemed like a very real experience which he then, with some understandable alarm, shared with
Now, that's just one possibility, and I do not give it more weight than any other necessarily. I've done my utmost with the materials available to
me as a layperson over the years to delve into every credible and well documented case of such phenomena I could find for the better part of 22 years
or so now. And I readily concede, there are cases that defy explanation. Many of which do involve apparent radiation exposure, burns, EM phenomena,
and various neurological and physiological maladies. I myself experienced something along those lines, to be frank. And while I am skeptical of what
really happened... I cannot deny or discount the possibility that something truly bizarre is happening in these cases.
Is it possible that your brother was exposed to radiation in an experience we have no insight into, and that this provoked his cancer? Yes. It's a
possibility. To say otherwise would not be rigorous or intellectually honest. Are there also other possibilities though? Yes.
But that's as far as I will or can go. I would not presume to know what happened and, frankly, there are some truly strange things afoot in this
world. Things I cannot begin to explain or understand. I am open to them. So I wish you luck in your quest for the truth and I hope, somehow,
somewhere, along the way in that journey, you find some solace, comfort, and closure.
Addendum: Your writing style doesn't seem unbelievable for a personal story at all. As you can tell by my own. Some of us just naturally write this
way. That shouldn't be held against us.