My heart is completely broken and I feel lost and raw. Our sweet B'asia is gone.
About eight years ago, I finally got the beautifully-bred, 8-week-old male German Shepherd that I had always wanted. That's Jaia, the dog in my
About 6 months later, his breeder contacted me, hoping that I'd be able to take a little female that no one else wanted. She was already 16 weeks old
and the breeder told me that her personality was such that she thought she owned the world. She barked orders at all the adult dogs there and was
high-energy and frisky. We named that feisty little girl B'asia... And after seeing one picture and one night of discussion, my husband and I knew we
had to have her in our lives. This is the first picture we saw of her.
When we picked her up after her long plane ride, she seemed timid and scared on the drive home, but after a few minutes at home, she was back to her
old self, barking orders at our other three dogs to keep them in line, just as she had done at the breeder's.
She eventually found her place in the pack and fit right in. We noticed that she was "different", however. She pranced instead of walking, crossed her
front feet when lying down and she displayed mild dominant behavior over our adult dogs, which they took it in stride, because they knew she was a
powder-puff puppy under that confident exterior. We'll never forget the day she pranced into the living room, dragging the end of the toilet paper
roll that led all the way back to the bathroom, as if she had discovered some wonderful treasure and wanted to share it with us.
We soon realized that B'asia was the most intelligent of our four dogs. Eager to please, and quick to learn and obey every behavior, she became quite
the "perfect" dog. A JOY to be around and a pleasure to work with. She was quirky. She chased flies and butterflies. She moved like the wind and was
such a beautiful example of her breed! She was patient and kind, even when I dressed her up in "people clothes". And she LOVED frisbee games and her
Video - B'asia at Play: s116.photobucket.com...
Video - B'asia in Flight: s116.photobucket.com...
B'asia took a "back seat" to Jaia, her older brother, because he is my first German Shepherd, and he has my heart. She played second fiddle most of
the time, but in the past couple years, I really began to see how truly special she was and made an effort to give her more attention and put her in
the spotlight. I'm very glad that I did that, because she deserved it. She was more special than I can say.
Early in her time here, I mentioned to my husband that I had a feeling that she might not be around too long. I thought she was so special that we
should prepare ourselves for her early departure. I don't know how I knew, but I felt like we should be sure to enjoy her every day... and we did. She
was everyone's favorite.
A couple weeks ago, she became ill. It was just a little infection, so we weren't too concerned, and our trusted vet of 15 years treated her with an
antibiotic that she had taken previously. A week later, she stopped eating and developed a very high fever. We discovered that her body had reacted to
the antibiotic in an extremely harsh way. Her blood platelets were destroyed and her kidneys were severely damaged. Toxins build up in her blood. It
was as if she had eaten anti-freeze or some other toxic substance. She was hospitalized and we made several attempts over several days to correct the
problem, including flushing out her kidneys on an IV, but nothing worked.
This past Wednesday evening, we made the very difficult decision to let her go, knowing that even if she miraculously survived this bout of kidney
failure, she would have chronic kidney disease the rest of her life... We couldn't be selfish and douse this beautiful spirit, only to keep her with
us, knowing that she'd be sickly and need special care the rest of her life, which wouldn't be long, anyway.
I've lost animals before. But they were elderly and had lived full lives. The loss of B'asia tears at my heart and I feel I'll never get through this
complete feeling of loss. Her departure has left a huge hole in our hearts and our lives. Making it from one hour to the next is the hardest thing
I've ever done. But I must ... if only for the two other dogs still here with me and for my husband, who is suffering right alongside me. Today is a
little better than yesterday and I hope tomorrow will be better yet, but I shall always grieve for the loss of the special little spirit that is my
Bayzee. Please send loving and healing thoughts.
I made this video years ago.
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edit on Fri Apr 3 2015 by DontTreadOnMe because: r=eplaced last link, per OP