posted on Dec, 3 2014 @ 10:14 PM
I was a pretty horrible student. I think it was because I didnt care about school. I don't know what it is with me. I wish I'd change. My gpa right
now is a 2.56. I know, it's horrible. But I do have time to bring it up because I have 67/130 credits.
I've done well in all the calculus and physics classes in college so its not like im stupid. But I think it's just that when it comes to
thermodynamics and statics, I freeze. I got D's in those classes and my father stopped paying for college for me. Im very lucky that he was able to
pay for it. I decided then to join the air force but 10 months later, I still haven't gotten to the basic steps of applying because of some reasons
so I decided to go back to school. My father is in for it. He's the one that suggested me to go back because he didn't like that I was wasting my
life away. I just turned 23.
Honestly, Im very scared to go back to school. I like it. But the classes are brutal. How do you study thermodynamics and statics and dynamics, and
all of those classes that you apply what you study with math problems and such. How do YOU do it? Just repeat the homework over and over again? Go to
the professor's office hours? Study groups?
Honestly, im scared to death when it comes to talking to people in class for study groups. I have no friends in classes ever. I dont have the balls to
say, "hey do you want to study together?" Idk what it is with me? Do you do that? I saw so many people studying together and helping each other out,
and im there trying to do everything by myself and had so many freaking questions. Maybe that's why I did so bad in college because I tried to do
everything by myself. Honestly, I think its because Im bi, and with 95% of the class being guys, I get all clenched up. You know, imagine if you were
in a class with all girls and theyre all "attractive" but you yourself were a girl. I think it's different when you know that other guys don't
know that you're bi so they act normal around you. Wouldnt it be difficult for you to be like, "hey you wanna study together"? I think Im just
making excuses for myself. How do you ask other people to ask for help? God, I can't believe im asking this on here but I really need help.