posted on Sep, 8 2014 @ 06:44 PM
a reply to: Restricted
I was just calling it divine for lack of a better term, to signify the supreme loneliness of thinking that you're God and that there is no-one else,
the sadness, the loneliness of thinking you created beings out of yourself just to not be alone anymore, but even worse, also realizing it, that it is
all a game, an effort to forget that loneliness.
Solipsism I guess, and I guess that might sound narcissistic in the extreme but remember I had a psychotic break and it was in no way an effort in
self-aggrandizement since it was in no part initiated by my conscious self, as well as not being pleasant in any way at all.
I wonder if it was a glance from the most high.. it pains me to think that it might be the truth... but could it really, seems stupid to think of
human emotions when dealing with such inconceivable levels of reality, anthropomorphizing such a being. How futile an exercise.