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Does this seem fair to anyone?
originally posted by: muse7
Do you have a lot of friends?
I'm 22 years old and I'll be turning 23 in September of this year. When I was a little kid I was always that quiet kid that never said anything to anyone. As a result of that I was never able to make any friends, and unfortunately I haven't been able to change much. I'm still very introverted even though I've tried to change. I guess it's just my nature to be introverted.
My parents always took me to see psychologists when I was a little kid because I was never able to engage with anyone. They wanted me to fit in, but seeing psychologists never did help me with any of my problems.
During these last few years, I've become a very hateful person. Every time that I see a successful person or a young couple, hatred and envy takes over me. Mainly because of the fact that they are living the life that I want to live. Even though I will graduate college next year, and I'll probably be on my way to a nice career I still feel empty inside.
My life has become so miserable because everywhere I go I see happy couples and I'm reminded of the failure that I am and the things that I'm missing out on. I exercise 3-4 times a week, and I try to look as good as I can but yet none of that has changed my miserable existence. It's almost as if the more I try, the more life humiliates me and I don't know why.
Today, I took a long walk through the park, alone like I always am. It was a beautiful day, but it's funny how even the most beautiful days can seem like the darkest corner of hell if you are alone. During this walk I saw a man that was about 300 pounds, but yet he had a girlfriend. I felt insulted by this, because how can a man like that find a girlfriend but yet here I am alone, even though I exercise 3-4 times a week and always try to dress as nice as I can?
Does this seem fair to anyone?
originally posted by: muse7
a reply to: TrueBrit
I am polite, kind, and I put a lot effort into how I look. But no matter how much I try everyone seems to hate me and I don't know why. I don't know why everyone is repulsed by me. I try to be friendly but yet I keep getting humiliated. I've been cast out.
It's almost as if there's some flaw in people's mind that makes them almost instinctively attracted to obnoxious guys. But yet if you try to act polite and show kindness it backfires on you most of the time.
I guess it's just my nature to be introverted.
originally posted by: muse7
Today, I took a long walk through the park, alone like I always am. It was a beautiful day, but it's funny how even the most beautiful days can seem like the darkest corner of hell if you are alone. During this walk I saw a man that was about 300 pounds, but yet he had a girlfriend. I felt insulted by this, because how can a man like that find a girlfriend but yet here I am alone, even though I exercise 3-4 times a week and always try to dress as nice as I can?
Does this seem fair to anyone?