posted on Apr, 28 2014 @ 04:53 AM
(Prepare yourself, this is a decently long thread with a lot of ranting, but necessary to get to the point; and I have questions/need guidance)
-An experience happened to me to this morning that I wasn't quite expecting, but, I probably asked for it.
You see, before I went to sleep I was juggling the thought that actually the mystics in the Himalayans and elsewhere that seclude themselves are
actually the most selfish human beings currently on earth (Yeah, even more than the Rothschilds or other X name brand elitist you can think of). How
could be that be? They've devoted themselves to a life of spirituality, to connecting to the 'god-head,' being one with the universe, etc. etc.
whatever you want to label it, it's the same regardless. But that's exactly it. They've reached a state of enlightenment but hide from the world
and seclude themselves in siddhis to live a hermetic life away from society so that THEY can experience this beautiful and wonderful experience of
unity and unconditional love. They thus LIVE in that experience rather than live and live with the experience. I call them selfish because they have
experienced a beautiful thing do not share it with anyone, they live by themselves for themselves in experiencing this single experience. If one knows
and if one has knowledge and has experienced or lives in the divine it should be on the forefront of their consciousness to share this with all who
have not experienced what they have experienced. No, instead they keep it to themselves.
So in thinking this I sent out a rather harsh message to all the mystics in the world via thought. I cussed at them for the reason above and pointed
out their selfishness and it disgusted me that they could experience such an experience as I have not want to help others. They experienced divine and
unconditional love but fail to have compassion to share with all? A recent thread in Philosophy & Metaphysics virtually said the same thing when
quoting Marcus Aurelius in the book Meditations, exception in this case replace the word intelligence "The man having the largest intelligence out to
be very generous to the other. Being thankful he has been blessed in so many ways, he should do all in his power to enlighten his less favored
Cicero also said something that rings similarly true to this account, "The higher a man is placed, the more humbly he should walk." When someone
truly walks humbly, he walks in compassion and compassion literally compels one to help the other. True compassion is feeling the suffering of others
and having shared their suffering act to help alleviate that. So then, what the %^*# are the secluded mystics doing to help those in the world when
the world clearly can benefit from their experience and energy besides being selfish to their own experience? I say, nothing. So I really lashed out
at them, I put in all my energy in calling out all of the spiritual and all of the enlightened. Every harsh word, every negative comment I could put
energy into for them being so high but doing so little to the naked eye.
And with this, I meditated some and went to sleep. Then I woke up, had a funny feeling, looked at my alarm and it wasn't time for me to wake up so I
turned over and closed to my eyes still thinking about my rant last night because it was still on the forefront of my mind but yet tried to go back to
sleep. Then my body suddenly froze. (You see, I was already awake and could move so this wasn't sleep paralysis) I couldn't move very much, similar
to sleep paralysis. And I freaked out a little, naturally, but then a voice, one I was familiar with (I'm not sure why, I have different theories)
said, " (insert name here) wants to speak to you. He wants to teach you his knowledge about a certain plant called (insert plant name here). He says
it has many properties that are not generally known and wishes to teach you. Would you like to talk to him and let him in?"
Now, this was very strange because I was still very much awake, but this voice came outside of me, yet was heard inside, but not completely 'inside'
of my head. Confused, and still shaken up from being frozen, I thought "Sure, I don't see why not, that seems interesting, but I'm very confused."
Next I felt a sudden taken over of my body, not violent, not even, but very sudden and it again put me into a state of freaking out. The person very
calmly said, "Hello, I-..." And being new to this experience and having never felt it before, it quite scared me. I quickly responded cutting him
off, "Who are you?" Then suddenly he lashed, "WHO ARE YOU? WHO ARE YOU WHO ARE YOU WHO ARE YOU?!" And it so sudden, so fierce, I could only think
"GET OUT GET OUT GET OUT." And I opened my eyes and saw a man above me, floating, not distinct, but I saw the entire floating outline of a man, head
and shoulders, directly above me, almost into me. After freaking out and forcing the man out, my paralysis was broken and I just sat there with my
heart being fast, although, it didn't feel like my heart... and having beat so fast it hurt for a little while after.
So, in the end, all I can say is, WHAT THE HECK WAS THAT?
After I finished my classes for the day I went and tried to look up with flower that was mentioned to me by the first voice. Something similar
sounding to "cicada" or "cascada," which, neither of those are a flower. One is a bug, the other is a pop singer.
Now something I didn't mention in the story was that the man was very, very, clearly Chinese. Which is 'sort-of' interesting considering that I'm
now studying abroad in China. So I tried to research into famous herbalist in China, living or dead... Then I stumbled upon something very local... I
live about 500 yards away from the South Putou Temple in Xiamen. The temple had its beginnings in the 7th century when a Buddhist monk named Qin Hao
arrived settled down in a dwelling on the mountain side and served the local people with herbs to heal them. When leaving, the local people begged him
to stay, and thus erected a small temple above his dwelling and it served as a spot where he taught Buddhism.
Funny. Could it have been him? Who knows, it could have been any Chinese throughout history or even today. That leaves billions of possibilities, this
is just perhaps the closest coincidence my mind can attach onto to attempt to make sense of the situation. And even then, could it be the rant of last
night is related to this experience this morning? I have no idea.
But I posted this so maybe someone could help me think about the situation logically or knowledgeably and in a guided manner and give any input or
examination of the situation. Because quite frankly, this was a first and I have no idea what to think about it. I am in other words, humbly