Finally after all these years- A place to tell my secret story!

So here I am. After all those years of dealing with the questions that arise from all I've learned alone. Now finally, people are waking up and I can tell my story of revelations. First, I would like to say it is an honor to join ATS after visiting the site for several years. I am an American living on the east-coast in a heavily military state beside another more military state, so I get to watch it move and transform. It has been very interesting to watch it's changes in tactics and methods, and very scary the contractor growth over the past decade.

I am in my 40s and my story of interest started when I was about 12 years old. My fathers family were Shriners and I had just met them. They had disowned my father years before for reasons I did not know or ever found out. His father had died at the early age of 36 while still in the military officially of a heart attack. I have never found anything to dispute that, but I have learned that real truth can be elusive, but I digress. I had just met my fathers family, and they told me they wanted me to move in with em for awhile, to help ease my mothers burden. My mom was straddled with three growing boys and a sorry husband so, it seemed a great jesture of help for my imediate family, so I agreed.

They had a huge house, at least it seemed to me cause we, my mom and brothers, never had much, and we struggled for that. It was a huge change in lifestyle for me, and for my personality, it was just what I needed. I was very curious about the world and how it worked, and these people seemed more than happy to introduce it to me in a very big way. Soon afterward, my great grandfather had me going and helping the Shriners with their charity events, and ther were many. Very helpful people those Shriners and I grew to love what they were doing and of course wanted to get more involved.

But I found it curious that I would get privilages normally reserved to degree Shriners and Masons. I mean I could pretty much go and do what I wanted, and was given access to an extremely large amount of historical and mathmatical information. I soaked it all up and, just like I feel they wanted, started seeing the world in a whole new light. I had always previously been extremely naive about thinking that everyone only wanted to help each other and that all authority figures only had the best of intentions.

Of course I soon come to know, disheartantly, how much of a dog eat dog world it was and that everyone had their own agendas. So, I also noticed that a certain group of guys that were doing work through the Shriners, seemed to be very organised and following intensly an agenda that they clearly didn't fully understand themselves. So, who were they following?

Yeah, I had to know because that was, and is one focused group of individuals. Soon I became a part of that group but mabe I was just to curious about where the orders were coming from, so soon I was told in order to stay a part of this group I would have to be initiated in to the Masons proper. I agreed. Now I wont go into to much detail now about the initiations, nor may I ever, cause really, most of you won't beleive the reality that you are opened to, so will dimiss it.

But we'll see if I crack later and tell some things upon someone aproaching this question in the right manner. Some of you already now why I must be this way. Anyway, turns out my fathers family, and I keep calling them that for a reason besides the fact that they are, and that is that they are not mine anymore. For some reasons I still don't understand, the initiations had what the Masons said, and when I say Masons, I say it because you would not know the groups specific name or symbol, well, mabe some of you will, but not many, I had what the Masons said was an unprecedented reaction, and that those at the highest levels say is a dangerous new anomally.

Long story short, the trauma portion of the "learning", taught me how to escape mind manipulation. And in a totally weird way in which I can scare the living daylights out of a programmer. I wont say much more than that, specifically because I don't know how I am able to do this, but let's just say I have an unusuall defense that comes from the simple knowledge that something never comes from nothing. Turns out if you think about it hard enough, is the basic principle of quantum physics, something I know a remarkable amount about for some unknown reason. Something else I should metion here is that shortly before I went to live with those people, I had a very strange experience.

I was 12, and thinking on, if their was a God, how could you prove it in a way that would convince non beleivers. Suddenly, after a couple of years of trying to meditate but being to young to figure it all out, I went into a sort of trance, and began to have what I guess would be a vision. In this vision, I saw a ball. And this ball was connected to other balls by magical energy that connected it to other balls, that connected to even bigger balls, and so forth and so on until I saw a man.

It was me! And a voice said," And this is how I created all things." And I said," Who are you? God?" And the voice said," I am the beginning and the end. The first and the last. I am that I am!" And I knew this to mean that he, or it, was the first entity to know that it was, and that all things revealed in reality henceforth was revealed, mabe even its existance owed to this entity. I have had many more such revealing visions since then, and upon prodding, I will reveal them to you later. In fact, I sometimes wonder if this is what I'm supposed to be doing. You know, My purpose. I believe that everyone has a specific purpose for this world.

No, I don't claim to have all the answers! But, since I left the group, something I will say never happens that far up the ladder, but again, I have a remarkable defense, so mabe thats why, I don't know but I am still alive, but since I left the group, I have been "led" to many revealing things. And this is the true reason I need support from and become part of a group such as yourself to help me sort it all out. You know what they say, the more you learn, the more questions you have. Let me tell you some of what I've seen. When I got home, I started doing alot of driving to help me think and explore. One day, I drove up on an unknown research facility run by Wake Forest. But my training help me notice that all the buildings did not belong to the college, but that indeed most of the buildings were UN military.

How do I know they are UN and not US? Well let's just say that I was escorted out and interoggated on how I beat their defenses. I would not, nor will I not say. Of course I was taken into custody, and that is where I met a man who would continually get me out of these type of situations. I do not know why but, I have a pretty good idea who he works for.

I would even state his name but, that keeps changing so. Not long after that, I have been "led" to all kind of things like that and recieved anamous papers on MKultra, Harp, UFO truths, and much more. Why? Again, that is why I'm here. I have no idea and its very unsettling. Now that so many are versed on these topics, mabe you can help me understand what they want me to know. Hoping.

That is quite the introduction, and worthy of the read.

You have a more than interesting story to tell, and I'm looking forward to you sharing more with us as you feel more comfortable.

Please don't let the trolls and naysayers get to you.

Welcome aboard, and I hope you enjoy your time here.

Welcome,go grab a beer,pull up a chair and take a breath.
We are here and listening.

do continue please show the symbol you spoke of.

Holy wall of text!

I saw a ball. And this ball was connected to other balls by magical energy that connected it to other balls, that connected to even bigger balls, and so forth and so on until I saw a man. It was me!

So you went from seeing a single ball (with no human relation) to seeing multiple balls (to me that would indicate a family) to seeing a single ball of which you assume was you....

Snicker..How can I not with so many balls mentioned?

WELCOME , your account is very intriguing. thank you for sharing it thus far.
Please keep going.

i'll ask....do you have some sort of mind ability?

Show us these papers.

reply to post by WhisperingWinds


Thank you! I am not worried about the naysayers. I've been dealing with this since the late 70s and early eighties when everyone was naysayers. Hopefully I can help wake em up. Besides, for some reason, most of what I've come to know is now being revealed!! It is a very exciting, yet extremely scary time to be alive! Thanks for the read!!

Originally posted by cavtrooper7
do continue please show the symbol you spoke of.

I think they might look like: (_) (_)

reply to post by kdog1982
Thank you!! Sounds like a good plan. And thanks for reading my post!

Welcome aboard
I'm interested in your story but will read later because it's too much text

Just a suggestion.
It would be read by more people if you broke it up into short paragraphs. You can't really tell which line you just read this way and it hurts the eyes.

Originally posted by Yeats
Holy wall of text!

I saw a ball. And this ball was connected to other balls by magical energy that connected it to other balls, that connected to even bigger balls, and so forth and so on until I saw a man. It was me!

So you went from seeing a single ball (with no human relation) to seeing multiple balls (to me that would indicate a family) to seeing a single ball of which you assume was you....

Snicker..How can I not with so many balls mentioned?

edit on 19-8-2012 by Yeats because: (no reason given)

Yes it's quite the yarn LOL

reply to post by cavtrooper7
Thanks for reading my post! The symbol is intricate, and no I wont show a pic now this random but, I will say that its basic core is a lighning bolt in the middle with a star on the tpo left side of it and a crecent moon on the lower right side. The significant teller is the lighning bolt. Sound familiar?

reply to post by nevernothing


Welcome.

You've got my attention. What a fascinating tale.

Welcome! Make 20 posts and start a thread on Harp (except it's HAARP, lol) I'm sure that was a typo up there! Still, I'd like to know more about it!

reply to post by Yeats
Thanks for reading my post! Hehe, yes, this is what I saw. I got the feeling it meant atoms and molocules leading to me and all that is in our universe. But, honestly, I guess it's open for interpretation!

reply to post by ujustneverknow
Thanks for reading my post! You know, it is very frusrtating but no matter how hard I try to do any kind of mind control I get nothing. Even after readding up and trying numerous methods. But, when put in a certain state by other individuals, willingly or not, I have complete control of what happens in all states of reality around me. Including over unknown entities, and can appear in our reality in a different form. Yeah, I know~ weird!!

Originally posted by nevernothing
reply to post by ujustneverknow

 

Thanks for reading my post! You know, it is very frusrtating but no matter how hard I try to do any kind of mind control I get nothing. Even after readding up and trying numerous methods. But, when put in a certain state by other individuals, willingly or not, I have complete control of what happens in all states of reality around me. Including over unknown entities, and can appear in our reality in a different form. Yeah, I know~ weird!!

Oooo.... examples, please!

reply to post by nevernothing

Hmmmm sounds Aryan, An old Nazi who I met in a nursing home profusely apologized to me he said they were performing a sacrifice not fighting a war but the followers were lost after the last incarnation when he said they should remember.I was into the occult at the time.
Unfortunately the senior staff in that particular death facility did not like anyone to talk to the subjects they were holding.I hate nursing homes.
I would have to see it first.But please carry on.

reply to post by METACOMET
Thanks for reading my post!! And in due time all I have will be shown but first, I will reveal where I have been led because there is a story emerging and now it seems more urgent. Besides, everyone knows how to fact find given info on where to look!!