posted on Sep, 4 2009 @ 06:50 PM
My name is Valeri and I'm a male. my name is Greek in its origin so it is considered a guys name around my neck of the woods...which isn't Greece
I'm from Estonia,small country just south of Finland.
I'm 20 years old, so still quite young age-wise, although quite a few people have told me my interests and my way about things(which is for example
never really getting surprised or excited much unless it is truly something out of this world- even then only get excited)
As far as what my mental life is about,and I'd like to talk in more detail about my mental challenges then here it goes.
Bare with me and please don't judge.
I always felt different from others and these are the potential reasons I may commit S one day:
1. As far as I know I'm the only person who wants to stay looking visually 17 years old as I was once and NO older,not even by a day,and preferrably
even looking the way I looked when turned 16.See,I matured early,so from there on I have only gotten more wrinkles under eyes(Im 20 now) and the aging
is only ahead.
I truly despise aging.
2. Also,i want silky-smooth wrinkle-free skin. I did not have that at 13-20 because of mild acne(which is over now but i have smal scars) and I have
small pores on my skin.I have seen many guys with skin so perfect,like a sculpture,no pores visible at all.(Chace Crawford) Also i despise the veins
and capillers under my eyes and bags and purple-blueish-greenish-reddish colour from my veins under my eyes. Why do some peopel have those and soem
are perfect such as Chace Crawford ?
I cannot be happy in my life if I don't have the best skin there can exist,which means silky-smooth,evenly-coloured,youthful,healthy, wrinkle-free
I have actually seen completely wrinkle-free guys(forehead,under eyes around nose-mouth) in their 20s and even 30s.