I Want OUT!!!!!!

I apologize for shouting, but I'm past all the lies and bullcrap. FOR REAL. Now at least maybe ONE PERSON that can help me will listen..It's all true, and I'm very tired

Dear "I Want Out,"

These are not times for the faint-hearted, but instead these are days when love and truth have the greatest opportunity to stand. In the end, love and truth are the most powerful forces in the universe, and can only be released in the greatest measure when opposed by the darkest evils.

These days are not human; this is correct. We all feel it. We all sense it. Our skies are peppered with strange chemicals. Our food is salted with even stranger chemicals. Our water is poisoned. Our teeth are poisoned. How the hell did this happen?

Consider this: If you want to know what is in your heart, all you have to do is listen to the words that come out of your mouth or the words you pen with your keyboard. The words you have written and the cry of your heart make it clear that you desire mercy and humane-ness in your life, instead of the insanity you see everywhere around you.

What if...what IF, what we are living in is a matrix, not unlike how it is that the words you speak and write are a reflection of your heart. What if...what IF...we have been wonderfully made by an infinitely-loving Creator, who has allowed our collective actions to be displayed in a 3D-universe so that we can see for ourselves what it is that as a collective we have chosen for ourselves? After all, are not your words a reflection of your heart/mind/soul? If I am correct, then it only makes sense that what we see around us is a 3D visual display of what is in our collective hearts as humankind.

Yes, yes, much ado is made of Satan, Lucifer, the Kingdom of Darkness, the Reptiles, the Red Dragon...and all that. But what if he is only doing his job, even though he himself and the inter-dimensional sentient souls of the universe that have aligned with this kingdom are only allowed to do so for our eyes to have a visual matrix of who we have chosen to become? What if?

If I am correct, then I propose that we love our greatest of enemies...even the reptiles of the Kingdom of Darkness. We can only overcome hate with love. Love always weakens hate. I challenge you: The next time someone looks at you with anger, simply smile or say something kind. Every time you will weaken your enemy. Love always prevails.

These are not days for the faint-hearted; rather, I say these are the days of releasing the greatest love. Forget religion; religious institutions have been captivated by the inhumanity of the system of money and have fallen prey with false revivals and doctrines of devils and strange physical manifestations which they think is of the holy spirit but are really masked by holey spirits.

Love is simple. It isn't proud. It never boasts. It is satisfied with the basics of life and seeks not to desire more until everyone has the basics. Could you imagine such a place? That, my friend, would be paradise.

And that begins with you!

Oh, now this is neat. The continuation of my first post has conveniently disappeared. All 4k characters of it. Guess I'll just be on my way if I can't even talk here either. Thanks and good-freakin-luck folks getting ANYONE to allow you to try to help and maybe save some lives? OH! That's UnAmerican. Free Speech, ignore the guy. He must be crazy because that's way too out there to be even remotely true. Have a nice day in hell or whatever if you removed a post of someone who's been trying to be heard for 3 years on behalf of everyone. If I'm wrong, about you removing my post, my apologies. 3 refreshes and I don't see it? You tell me. I know that if I don't see it here, you just get added to my list as well, eventually SOMEONE will help me stop all this nonsense.
GOOD DAY,
xephy

Originally posted by XcLuciFer
Amazing!! people have written they feel pity for me, You shouldn't. People have said get over it and that life isn't easy. You are so right life isn't easy here, never has been and its only going to get worst. I'm over it already don't you get it, I could care less what happens to people like you that accept the status quo! I've read that I need to get out, take a stroll right, just pretend everything is ok! Sorry can't do it. I read a post that stated their is in fact some kind of balance, what a laugh. Tell me what good deed is their that can balance out a child being molested by some one who role is to nurture. I could go on and on but its pointless if you don't understand whats going on in this world then me telling you isn't going to help you, and you can not help me!

you must understand that everything around you is just an illusion/hologram of your mind/consciousness... problem is that you focus molested children (and other things) constantly and then your thoughts materialize molested children (and other bad things) in your hologram...

yes it is your fault, your thoughts are, in a way molesting those children, not 'other people' (do not get offended, I know you are smart enough)

how to create a balance?... try to (and this is not easy) focus on bettering yourself, try to understand that your thoughts create things in your world, try to understand that you are a god like creature with an ultimate gift of creation (with your consciousness)...

also, (I am certain that you felt true love in your life more than once...) your emotions are very important, while you focus on how thing should be right, try to find a feeling living in that perfect world of yours... emotions are the tool, feeling good is the way to program your hologram...

I know this sounds like some new age cr*p, but it is not...

it is the way of things, change your thoughts and you will
change your world...

How can we call this life?

We work for 30 years and for what? So we can be old, our bodies falling apart from 30 years of laboring 9-5 and paying bills, dealing with stresses which we were never made to deal with. Playing the role of the "good producer" so we can be an active contributor to society all the while receiving crumbs in return for only the sacrifice of the prime of our lives. Nobody stops to think what this world COULD be. Nobody seems to have the sense that this world is like a giant casino - all the games, every activity has the odds in the favor of the house and we're all stupid enough to sit playing for years on end ... the house would like to thank all the people who are too enthralled by the flashing lights to realize what is going on. So many will fight and argue - "anyone can hit a jackpot!" - ah yes because some lucky sap may one day hit a jackpot the system of bleeding you for all your humanity, is worth playing the games.

We have to be taught how to live and survive in this world. This society we live in is nothing natural. Just as children are indoctrinated into religion, they are indoctrinated into this society. We tell them; all you have to do is be more ambitious, productive, clever, use the system and you will "succeed". We rob our children of their childhood and force them to become "educated" in schools... where they go to be taught how to be good producers. Never mind letting children be children, there's no time for that nonsense anymore, we have to get them ready to be good producers - and that means an early start!

So few realize that the goal of our society has only ever been destruction of the natural world. In order to produce goods, you need to destroy the things that are already there. Destroy the mountains for metals (and the people who mine them too). Destroy the trees for lumber. Destroy the rivers and fish who swim in them, for electricity. Don't any of you realize this planet is finite - there is a limit on how much we can destroy?

This is not life. This is not living. This is forced labor. Just try to live in this world without working - producing and destroying. You were not raised to be self-sufficient you were raised to be dependent on the system.

There are worse systems in this world and I am thankful that I am not in one of those. But this system is very, very, very far from being perfect. It is very far from being anything I would choose, of the things in my imagination.

We live in a system which does not put any value on any one person other than what their labor is worth. Look at your sons, your daughters, your lover, your parents... You likely value them more than this society values them. Can you imagine a society which places more than a dollar value on them?

Ah what the hell... I don't expect any of you to understand... never mind.

Things become clearer when you come to the realization,and accept and admit,that humans are not the dominant species on this planet,that we are not,and will never be blessed like we claim to believe we are until we change our ways drastically.

Almost all of the things you and I have been led to believe to be truths,in reality are outright lies,or twisted half truths.

The animals are free,we are slaves,we are born naked and helpless,we remain naked and helpless throughout our entire lives.

That is why we need each other,and to learn from what we consider to be the simpler forms of life on this planet.

There is no government in the wilderness,yet somehow it does not destroy itself,we destroy it.

Go about your life with the express intent of doing no harm to anyone,or anything,in any way.

Damaging other things and other people is unavoidable in realiy,but put into conscious practice to minimize the amount of damage you do,and the world will be a better place for all.

Be like the breeze,move through and rustle things around a bit,and be gone.

Revel in it,but don't leave a mess for someone else to clean up after you are gone.

Just a few meanderings..............

Star for the OP.

I often feel this way. I even had an episode where I was younger and was shown how the entire universe revolves around (well it felt like me at the time), but afterwards, and this is a good years before the matrix came out. I got the feeling these episodes that happen once, maybe twice in a persons lifetime, depending on how much they can be shown whats behind the curtain...

Anyhow I got the feeling that the universe was running off our fear during these episodes, and useing it as energy. Well they got alot of juice out of me because I was scared as hell. It was so rediculous and real, when i think of it i get horrible panic attacks. But it is also so hard to grasp I cannot explain for the life of me what exactly happened, it was like I was in a room, but not in a room, really wierd.

Then sometimes I get the feeling I am the only one here and this is all some big joke on me, Kinda like the Truman Show but my life isn't a TV show, my life and thoughts are ALL that there is.

It's lonely and freaky, and many times I bug out so bad, I just want out.

I whole heartedly agree with your point...I don't remember signing up for this. I didn't ask to be born. Heck they could have given my life to some poor 1 year old who died of some rare terminal disease.I think i understand where your comeing from. I really want out. Really, if it wasn't for my daughter, and a couple family members i would probably take it into my own hands, but that IS NOT an option. So i'm stuck here, and I don't want to be.



[edit on 19-7-2008 by Nola213]

reply to post by xephy


When makeing a long thought out post, which is somewhat time consuming. Always , and I mean Always, highlight it, right click copy it, then unhighlite it and try to post.

I've learned the hard way, haveing written at least 5 long meaningful post that just don't post when i go to post them, it's a glitch in the ATS boards, and many other boards I've used.

So again copy and save those long posts, because 8 times out of 10, they won't show up.

So it's not you, it happens to everyone, I've talked to others about it.

I know if VERY frustrating, but i hope you stay.

Focus on the positive in this - heaps and heaps of people from all walks of life seem to be waking up to reality. Wow, at last. We are witnessing the greatest paradigm shift in human history.
THERE WILL BE A NEW DAY AND WE SHALL SING A NEW SONG..... but the old elitists, and those of like mind, will be left behind because they will not be able to sing the new song - their consciousness has not evolved sufficiently for them to be allowed to advance with the rest. May they reincarnate in a different world more appropriate to their level of evolution, so that the rest of mankind can progress.

reply to post by XcLuciFer

I didn't sign up for this,...

Yes you did. Everyone is shown their entire life before they're born. You agreed.

What crime could my soul have commited to deserve such damnation.

Try all the usual, boring ones.

I do not want to be here to watch these animals destroy what once was and still could be a paradise.

Those animals think it is paradise made for their own gratification. Sound familiar?

I demand an explanation for this contempt, this hatetred which is being displayed in a unscapable arena.

There's no explanation. There's only the present moment, and the ontological fact of your being within it; a privelege enjoyed only by 6,711,030,569 other units in the known universe.

It has been calculated that there are about 3,000,000,000,000,000,000,000,000,000 atomic units in a dog.



There's no escape. If you check out, you'll just have to start all over again. Ask Omraam Mikhael Aivanhov.

the power of the people is that we here at ATS are able to write and think freely.
the power of the powers is to fight diversity. nature is diverse and humans are diverse, this makes nature/species able to conquer any obstracle.
by making us less diverse, we become controlable, conquerable.
please go hide in a cave if thats your path, -but everybody, keep posting! we need all the diverse and wrong thought right here at ATS
the free will and free thought can win against the doctrinated one world one thought thing.
they make us build their world till the day we have built everything they need, then out free press etc is not needed anymore.
leave, get out, somehow, but dont forget us here at ATS (:

reply to post by Kingalbrect79


C'mon, as much as we all here would like to have peace, lets not be naive - 20 years from now wars will be even more common than now

War is a business and people are manipulated in wars and they will fight for themselves always when attacked.

Originally posted by XcLuciFerI WANT OUT!!!

I hear ya'. I cant' wait for the etherial. I'm looking forward to it.
Although I remember a line from a movie I saw (can't remember the
movie - Pirates III I think) - it was something like 'life is hard so why
should the afterlife be any different'.

Originally posted by skywatch
the power of the powers is to fight diversity. nature is diverse and humans are diverse, this makes nature/species able to conquer any obstracle.
by making us less diverse, we become controlable, conquerable.
(:

I am not sure about that - I think they are interested in diversity - then they can set us up agains each other by activating differences and painting them in red trying to draw attention to set another war!!

reply to post by FIFIGI


yes exactly, but every war is killing diversity. both in humans and nature. to achieve total control, you need to set it up against each others and kill it off.

There geniunely are people out there who have real hardships were every single day is just a struggle for survival and when they go to bed they probably dream of the opportunities we have so readily available, to have running water and stores full of fresh food. Most of us should thank fate, god or whatever you believe in that we have the good grace to be who we are, where we are, at the time we are in. If you really really can not see how prescious this all is and what opportunity you have to make something fantastic out of your short time then i pity you. Misery for many is a self created illusion that not only wastes your own life but is a slap in the face to others worse off.

Just go out and enjoy yourself, be foolish take a chance just do anything to make you feel alive, cos if you look back at the prime of your life and realise the time you wasted well that would be far more depressing than any mood you could create right now.

i aint preaching, its your life mate, do with it what you will because where ever you end up, its only you that got you there.

reply to post by XcLuciFer


Fear not...many will come in droves that feel exactly as you do. Even folks you would have never dreamed that appeared to have everything will be wanting to get out of the line you refer to at the rollercoaster.

Many felt this way long ago and were called insane, depressed, low self esteem, negative etc. The ones that called us insane would always try to negotiate and plead to us from a...just be positive standpoint, get some professional help etc. This standpoint of be positive, cheer up, think about getting on some happy pills is no longer working.

Personally I couldnt care less if I'm killed when I walk out the door in a few minutes. Even if all the so called wonderful things in life were offered to me to change my mind in this mortal existence...i'm basically no longer interested.

[edit on 7/19/2008 by prometheus1111]

I haven't read many of the replies, so sorry if I say something that has already been said.

Anyway, I really understand what you are saying. I feel the same, every day I wake up and all I feel is depressed and alone. I'm physically and mentally exhausted by life. I'd never commit suicide because I'm not a quitter but I can't say it hasn't crossed my mind.

Some days, I wake up and just don't want to get out of bed because I'm so fed up. I hate being so negative, yet I can't think what is missing from my life that's making feel so crap.

It's almost like I'm held prisoner inside my own mind and there's no escape.

I can't help but think this a universal feeling at the moment. I know that most of my friends are feeling the same way I do.

All I can say is, one day things will change. It will get alot worse before it gets better though I think.

reply to post by XcLuciFer


I hear you loud and clear. I too am appalled at what America has become. I have seen the Land of the Free, and the Home of the Brave become a nation of idiots and fundamentalists, and crooked politicians, and new word order minions. I have seen an American president become a criminal, and I have watched him commit High Treason, and the People, and the Congress does nothing about it. They are powerless to fight, it seems. Andrew Jackson would spin in his grave if he could see us now.

What Would The Founding Fathers Do?

I would like to ask everyone in the forum what they think our Founding Fathers, men like Thomas Jefferson, would do in light of today’s government rule. With all the things going on before our very own eyes, in very plain sight, it’s quite obvious that the New World Order and/or police state will happen very soon. Are we run by tyrants? I’m pretty sure everybody would have to say yes. If the majority of US citizens feel that those who run the government are tyrants and enemies and un-surpers of the Constitution, are we not obligated to do something? If nothing is done now, I for one fear for what will happen within this next year.

They are destroying the Constitution ("just a goddanm piece of paper") and taking away our Liberties, and next will be our weapons. G. Bush senior said himself that the NWO will happen. Look who is in office today! Why it’s Bush's son! Like father, like son. They are pushing to amend the Constitution to put Arnold in office, why would anyone wish for this? A foreigner and the son of a Nazi for America's Commander in Chief. There is way too much corruption to name here, you all know the story.

Would our Founding Fathers revolt? Rebel? You bet they would, they did it before, for a lot less than this! They took on the mighty British Empire!
What will YOU as an American citizen do? I am not saying this to be an anarchist, or because I don’t love my country, or to start a revolution. (wink) I am writing this because it is TOO obvious what is happening to our once great Union of States, America.

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