posted on Jan, 20 2021 @ 05:09 PM
I didn't want to spend a bunch of money on a pillow I can't try out but looking at the pics of the one I linked I figured at 37 bucks, I'll try it.
Last night is still lingering with me and I can't stand what's going on. Gotta try something different. Why the hell this is happening to me now is a
I truly am at a loss. It's not numbness, it's nearly useless upper arm muscles because of the pain. I can feel the effects and I fear it's not going
to get better unless I do something a wee bit drastic. The pain is mostly reserved for when I get up, that's when my arm is at it's most useless, but
there are times when simply reaching for something is painful. That's how my friend spotted it.
I can't seem to not do this while I'm asleep so a special pillow that will force me to conform to it seems to be the way to go. I can get in there,
put my arm out all I want so it looks like it.
Still I wonder why now. This doesn't seem to be a blood flow issue and I've been sleeping like this for most of my life. It's like it's retarding my
muscles. They are not hurting me right now but they also do NOT feel right. Aching would be a good word for what I'm feeling and with the left arm
it's more than just a little bit of aching.
Why does sleeping, one of the supposedly easiest things we'll ever have to do in our lives, have to be so hard? I haven't even gotten into he other
problems I have sleeping and won't here for now because this one is causing me pain and this will not do. I can't live with useless arms. I need to be
able to simply pick up objects without doing some serious cringing.
The pillow arrives in a week. That looks so far away. This has really gotten me down. I just want it fixed.