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originally posted by: optimisitcplanet
I think im the masculine soul and my twin is feminine. I cant describe the happiness i get when im around him, he makes me more complete.
Ideally, this happens in both of their last lifetimes on the planet so they can ascend together.
Seriously though: I personally don't believe there is a twin soul waiting for me out there. I have always felt that everyone is one of a kind.
originally posted by: optimisitcplanet
Does each of us have a ''twin soul''?
After he left and started going with someone else, I never felt so betrayed tho logically there was no reason.
...someone would have to meet or exceed what I felt as well as the memory that never goes away. Never gone with anyone since.
A betrayal of any kind can be very traumatic,...I've discovered that sometimes it might not be the person that you bond to but instead an event that you then associate with a person that you bond to.
Yes, I understand that. When the woman he left me for died it was traumatic. It was a wholly negative experience but we or I had a negative bond with her. Someone wrote on her Facebook page that she did whatever she need to do to get what she wanted and usually succeeded. I was the recipient of that.
And in this case, it sounds like the event is the separation... which made you feel things that you couldn't even understand
Yes, this is true
You didn't understand your own emotions and you even DENIED your own feelings by telling yourself that "there was no reason" to feel betrayed.
That was not denying feelings and emotions. That was using reason and logic but also accepting that the feeling and emotion couldn't be denied.
MAYBE THERE IS A REASON and maybe you should investigate yourself to either prove me wrong or right.
I wholly agree someone should investigate their self first. I started that process long ago... before I met him. Who am I, how do I change for other people, why did I allow myself to become a victim, etc,etc, etc, how did I perpetuate this negative life I have lived?
Either way my understanding of trauma is that it shatters people. By shatter, I mean literally. Trauma splits people up and disconnects a person from their own emotions, sometimes from their own memories, and this is exactly what you just expressed(probably without even knowing that you expressed it). Perhaps earlier breaks/trauma's softened you up to this one as I am NOT a believer in the expression "what doesn't kill you makes you stronger."
I have to disagree with this. It is the emotions that is at the core of the trauma and the memories are what you/I strive to forget.
In a very real sense trauma becomes addicting- because once you've been in a situation where you've been so stimulated(positively or negatively, either or)... like I said and like you are saying in the above quote, all else pales in comparison and thus life can start to feel dull, numb and the majority of it un-important. So it's very hard to move on from that state and accept that you're here now and settle for a... "lesser" boring life.
Yes, I cannot deny that and it is a struggle I deal with daily.. But no, a year ago I decided to settle for that boring state of life. That is where I am. And the addiction I am well aware of and it scares the hell out of me. Since I believe in past lives, this is one I do not want to repeat, thus the struggle. My question is were we meant to be together for mutual growth or was this a means to place me on the path I was on before we met.
And since I'm on a roll, I feel like you're not even able to be truly appreciative or even learn and gain anything from your past experiences when you are frozen in a disconnected trauma state. You may think that you're being truly appreciative and that you've gained a lot while you're holding onto it but you're really not (not you in general, but the traumatized individual that hasn't connected to their own emotions)- you're just holding onto it because it's not making sense for you so it's stuck on replay in your mind. You're trying to fit the puzzle pieces together, trying to make sense of it, trying to connect the dots and attain some sense of closure. But there never is any closure really, is there. Not without acceptance. Not when you continue to deny yourself. Making sense of it starts with connecting to your own emotions and accepting that you first felt betrayed by this act and yes it made sense to feel betrayed, because there are reasons to it. Valid reasons.
While I do appreciate your wisdom and knowledge and would very much like to be friends with you because of that, on this last point you are so totally wrong. Not hard to understand because you are taking from a brief post.