posted on Sep, 17 2013 @ 08:28 PM
Been there about 5 or 6 times now, mate... and currently I'm on a new path. My old life is something I've had to cut completely off from anything
ahead of me, such that it's impacted things like getting work or doing things that require a history... like getting a security license - I needed 2
character references from people I've known for at least 5 years. Well, as I've cut my life in half, there is no one. So that ruined that.
Now I've had to rely on past things only as a means to say I'm not a bad person. Luckily I'm not. So that paid off. (I might be an arsehole, but
that's life ha! I'm no calculating monster however.)
Took me a decade. Took me a long time to realise I'm never going to be what THEY wanted me to be. I'm done with I.T. work, done with being something
I had decided, at one point, homelessness was inevitable (again) and that eventually it would be the end of the line. Got all my kit. A bob. A tent.
no plans, no care. No responsibility.
Strangely, I'm now seeking a new life helping others who were in my old positions but who may not have had the same experiences I have, that have
enabled me to see a clearer path.
I am not there yet. I have no advice. I can't offer anything other than look at what you have in front of you, and take care of it. Don't look down
the track. Don't look to tomorrow. Don't make that story up as it's always going to be a story. Look at right now. That is happening and you can
change it. Doesn't mean it will make it better. And sometimes it will get worse. But you have that control.
Welfare... those who say don't use it or not rely on it.. why.. it's there to help you. If yo uneed help, take it. Don't let it be anything but
that. God, we're not asked to be born on this planet, and we are the only species that has to pay to exist. Or somehow, we're expected to just die
alone in a corner.
Society can eff off if that's how it thinks, but I know it doesn't. not at the grass roots level. People in well off positions can cry and wail "My
taxes my taxes, you don't deserve them!" and well, they should look at the world as it is.. not their own little random peice of it.
We have vast amounts of land that are closed off because it's owned by a government or a company. VAST OPEN SPACES. illegal to encroach on. Why?
Society says you live by our rules, or you don't live at all. Feeding homeless people is illegal. What sort of society is that.
I say, take what is on offer, screw those who cry about it, and deal with your situation as best you can. It's getting ridiculous. We used to live
in communities that looked after each other. Now we're alone.
I say this out of old spite, but new things are changing my mind, slowly. I see good in so many people, that it has to be the vocal minority who jump
up and down and rant. Sod them, I say.
Ignorance or apathy. You have to fight it in order to survive. And not let it force you into submission.
so I can't offer you any advice. I've been where you are. It's a journey we have to go alone, but certainly don't dismiss someone elses good
advice if you find it. Part of our journey is finding that special help in whatever form it comes. Sometimes, it comes from the most unexpected of
Just remember, as long as you are taking positive steps to whatever you value in your life and not simply playing a role because you feel obligated
to, and as long as you are focused on what you are doing RIGHT NOW and not in 10 months, 10 years of even last week, that failure is only going to
happen if you give up that momentum. Failure is giving up trying and not when you don't succeed.