Ok, so here is a very open and honest approach to what i think about the heart as an energy center in a manner of speaking. Lets not get this confused
with chakras either because i dont want to open this discussion up talking about chakras, i would like to have my OP take a more neutral approach.
I had a very troublesome childhood, kidnapped, things happened there, bad stepmother and the story goes on... but thats not what this is really about.
That type of information i have been working very hard to get through on a personal level and been making very, very slow progress after a very very
long and hard struggle in life. In fact some of you who have read through a few of my threads may know. Such
asMy thread about being a violent felon...
Now, here is where it gets interesting. I few years ago i was told by a psychic, and i know i know ok lets not go there, that my heart center was
closed off and out of balance. I took that to heart, no pun intended. So for years ive been trying to figure out how to get it balanced and until
recently, very recently made little to no progress.
Let me tell you what ive tried, ive tried meditation, heart chakra meditation, a few special compounds which i cant talk about, sweat lodges, falling
in love(impossible). Thats just a list off the top of my head.
Let me tell you whats worked, moving back home with my family who i spent over 10 years away from with little to no contact with. Its been a religious
struggle to try and get a relationship going with my father. He is as hard headed as i am. But heres where the issue gets really tough. I have to
actually open myself up and accept the love into myself first before i can make a serious attempt at loving. This isnt easy. I mean i to look at my
father and be ok with loving him and feeling that energy of love. In fact that feeling of love is so foreign that, it feels, it feels almost wrong or
bad. I dont know how to explain it properly but its the truth. Its almost as if ive been away from it for so long that i dont want it there anymore.
This goes deeper then this to. This has affected my entire life, my ability to succeed, be happy, it has even fundamentally changed my personality for
Now i have made a few small, very small strides and i have let a few volts of this energy course through me and my personality as i face the demon
that has been taking its place and is trying to convince me it isnt real and it isnt who i am. Ive noticed a few things. When im allowing this energy
through me i am funnier, happier, more open and people actually want to be in my presence more. Its intensely satisfying and has changed my entire
perspective on a few things.
I wanted to share that with you and hopefully reveal more information through response to others questions.