Dear fellow members,
I have been lurking ATS for many moons, but hadn't registered until recently. Unfortunately I haven't had a chance to contribute too much to the
excellent discussions by you all, that I enjoy reading every day - I try to refrain from posting unless I feel that I have something worthwhile to say
I am creating this post today (I think it may only be my second, though hopefully not my last), to let my fellow members know that I am unwell. Both
physically, and emotionally as for the past 14 months I have been followed by a mysterious illness.
Please let me describe my symptoms:
Around 5pm every day I:
Notice that 2 lymph nodes in my neck, one below my jaw, and the other below my ear begin to swell
Get a dull headache at the back of my head,
Notice that objects I look at, all the straight edges begin to shimmer a bit and wiggle,
Run a mild fever of 99.2-100.2F
Lose all energy instantly, as if hit by a brick wall,
Become agitated, distressed, and feel something terrible is going to happen,
Smell ammonia, sometimes a burning diesel smell (which only I can smell),
Begin to perspire, the sweat also smelling like ammonia.
I have been self diagnosing myself, and driving myself up the tree and down the other side. First I thought Lyme disease, then I thought perhaps onset
of HIV, then mono, then rabies, and then kidney problems due to the ammonia connection, and the list goes on and on until I was absolutely convinced I
had every disease imaginable.
I have sought out medical help every step along the way for the past 13 months or so, and I have been run through a complete battery of tests -
multiple blood tests including complete blood cell counts, bacterial cultures, spinal taps, MRIs, CAT scans, PET scans, Ultrasounds, sleep monitoring,
heart monitoring, and so many more that I can't even recall them all to list.
I have also been to numerous medical specialists: oncologists, cardiologists, immunologists, infectious disease specialists, etc etc.
Everything comes back as completely normal as to be expected for a 25 year old, moderately overweight male who smokes. They don't know what to tell
me, and are starting to refuse to even take further inquires from me - I've even been told that I am just plain crazy and should seek the care of a
psychiatrist (which I did - and he believes me to be certifiably sane of mind!).
Despite all the reassurance from professionals: I know, deep down inside of me, that something is very wrong. I feel I am not only battling some
strange disease, but also battling against my own mind's desire to give up the fight and to give in to frustration, anger, hopelessness, and who knows
I don't know what I've got, or what the outcome will be, but while I am still able, I wanted to say thank you to each and every one of you, and I
would like to let you know that I appreciate the effort you have all put into your posts and replies. Thank you for the laughs and giggles you allowed
me to have. Thank you for sharing your highs and your lows - I feel like I have been right there beside you experiencing them with you.
I hope that eventually I will get better, but if I don't, thank you for all the enjoyment and mind opening conjecture you have given me. I truly
appreciate each of you, and the creators of ATS that allowed us all to come together. It has been a very enjoyable and a very wild ride - and remember
- don't stop questioning everything and *never* blindly believe the MSM
Sincerely, and extending my warmest regards to everyone,
edit on 14-4-2013 by hombero because: To add the swollen lymph node symptom