So many more of you posted in my previous threads with words of kindness that I felt like I owed some of you the courtesy of saying thank you. It
would have taken too long to go through my past threads to acknowledge all of you
And to all of you who disagreed with me...in threads that neither one of us wrote..thanks for speaking your heart
I want to give you all closure.
My father called me today. While my children were in the room. I hesitated, then answered thinking maybe I'm wrong in my judgement. I was very
disappointed to learn that I was not. The conversation, as all are, was steered by the one with an agenda. I know I have nothing to offer him and his
wife, yet I could sense his regret. I don't presume to understand the origin of that regret. It was more of a perception of the tone
So that moment brought me to my current state of closure. I could hear in his voice the disappointment of what I have become. And please believe I
don't blame him? It wasn't his fault. Maybe my destruction is a product of the media. Or maybe I'm paying for past life sins.
Maybe I'm paying for making a wrong decision in this life that should have been different.
I know there are three things that I can't answer. What I should have done, what I can do better and what I'm going to do next
I do know that none of this is any of your business. Or responsibility. That's why the title says what it does.
So many of you reached out the other times that I tried to be honest while posting that I was shocked. Those who contacted me personally, please
believe me that I'm not self destructing. I'm just leaving above top secret because I don't think that I have any more to contribute here. And I have
seem from the the opinions of other members regarding America's status that my opinion should be stifled for my families sake
After I post this I will wait one hour, then delete my account. In case deleting an account deletes a thread.
To all of you who fight for life, soldier on
Maybe we will see each other in the wings
It seems that deleting an account at ats is nearly impossible, after looking into it. The only option is to log it and most come back.
So be it.
edit on 7-1-2013 by Mrgone because: (no reason given)