posted on Jul, 3 2012 @ 02:14 PM
I never thought for a minute, I would ever write one of those " I have a feeling, " or a " Does anyone else ever feel this way "threads ? But
this, Phu feeling...
This feeling I woke up with this morning, being something I haven't ever experienced before. No never. Is so freaking horrible and scary and hard to
talk about and at the same time so unlike Randy. That in truth, ATS is about the only place I ever would talk about it. As ATS has some of the most
wonderful people I've ever met. Definitely the place to go to broaden, or renew, or embolden your faith in the human kind. Said it before I know, but
it's appropriate more even now.
I love this place because of everyone of you.
So anyway, WTF is that ? Or this ? It's as if I woke up this morning and I couldn't find Randy. For those who don't know him to well. He's a guy
who entertains the hell out of me all the time. He has done so my whole life, with a most excellent sense of humor and has never let me down with out
You know, like a death, or a war, or some catastrophic bit of doom being unleashed on humanity. The extremely contagious laughter that is the Randy
my wife says," is an absolute blast to be married to ", was no where to be found.. And to tell you the truth as I type this, right here and now,
I'm finally starting to pull myself together again. Just now. So glad my wife is still and was at the store when I woke up. I think it might have
shook her up to see what the hell I just went thru.
So now WTF was that?
I wake up like I do every morning.
Beautiful day outside, things are looking up in my life. But out of no wheres ville, I have this inexplicable urge to lament for no reason ? In fact
the more I'm getting it together here, I'm even wondering if I shouldn't be concerned a little more.
I mean because, I have never been like this before. This feeling of lamentation that forced me to look back across my days on this earth, literally
brought me to knees and caused me to sob helplessly, with my face in my hands.
As if this were the saddest day I've ever lived and looking at the smiley face on my Joe boxer shorts was what began to turn things around for me.
Isn't that weird ? Or maybe not ?
I don't get it, but the wifey is home and I'm not even ready to let her know yet. Don't worry tho peeps I will talk to her about this later when
I'm sure of myself again. So no need to call me on that one. But wow ! You guys, I'm not a wuss, but I want to know what's up with that so how bout
it. I hope this is the last time I ever write one of these cause I don't like feeling uneasy about Randy as he has always been ok. But no need to ask
if I'm alright cause I am once again physically spiritually mentally sound. But
WTF is/was that ?
And the hardest part of this thread .
Has anyone else gone thru something like this ?
Or am I odd ? IDK and IDC what it is you personally think of this or me ? But write it down here please, I want to read it. I can tell I'm back all
good cause I have that peaked curiosity about where this one will go on ATS again.
Yet if it goes right in the toilet ? That'll be ok too !