posted on Mar, 22 2012 @ 03:00 AM
I'm perfectly healthy and am about to turn 39 on March 31 (though I'm avoiding my bday in the real world. I hate being reminded xD). I don't really
get /too/ into the hype about the goings-on in the world though I try to keep abreast of what's going on.
Do I think anything is going to happen this year? I keep an open mind to any possibility but I don't live for/by it, if that makes sense.
However, the last few weeks I've noticed myself almost feeling displaced or like I'm here but not really here. Almost like nothing matters like it
once used to. I still obviously go to work, take care of responsibilities, love life, am happy as one can be given the state of the world. Don't
drink, use bad substances, not on any meds, etc.
It's just odd how I feel almost like someday real soon I won't be here any more and that things really don't matter like they used to. Nope, not
depressed or suicidal. Couldn't be farther from the truth. I have read posts on here about the 'wakenings' or 'new consciousness' for 2012 and
sometimes wonder if that may be indeed what's going on. Whenever I get this feeling as I just did about 30 minutes ago, I get a moment of fear but
then it subsides into a feeling of 'fine', that 'this is all right'. Anyone else feeling this way or somehow similar and maybe could give me an
idea what's going on?