Death...
If you want a logical reason for death than it is easy; your body gives up for some reason and you drop down dead. Maybe you got hit by a car, killed
by a disease or maybe your cells simply devided so many times that the telemeres all became to bad to create proper new cells. Whatever the reason,
death is the end of your lives cycle.
Many people find death frightning, in fact I believe many more than most here are willing to believe. It is not just the old man murmoring that he
does not want to leave or the young man in the car accident that feels his life leave him. It is the religious zealot that claims he will come to
heaven or the Buddist that thinks he will reincarnate as a butterfly or some higher being. Those people too, are afraid of death for otherwise they
would not willingly believe in such unfounded thoughts.
Yes, death is freightning, the unknown end of darkness that awaits even the most stout of all humans. The knowledge that pope and beggar, king and
servant will ultimatly wield to this faceless butcher of dreaded darkness. Or isn't?
Are we really afraid for death, or merely for how and when we die? Is there really something to fear from the nameless dark? Are we afraid that when
we die some evil will stroke upon us, slap us in the face, confront us with are past mistakes? Really, is it necessary to point to a sinner and shout
at him that he is one? is it not already the sinners punishment that he is a sinner, willing and knowingly? Is it not the demons in once own head that
make life unbearable and death a nameless fear because of the unbearability of our own guilty lives?
No, people do not fear death, they can't since there is nothing known about death. They fear the very world they have created to be death, a world in
which they need to somehow repend for their own mischief and wrongdoings. But they won't pay when they are dead, for in death we all are equal to no
ends. In death we are all dead. We pay in life for our mischief, by knowing we are wrong, and it eats away our sanity like a rat eating away the
lifeline that is it's own. For our guilt will destroy us and we are guilty because we inheritly know it of our selves.
Now then, you might think, how guilty is this sinner that is writing these words? How can he say such blasphemous words? I can tell because at the
bottom of my soul I am a monster. A twisted individual who has become grotesque; a black creature embedded at the bottom of its own hellish mind. And
as I lash with spiked tentacles and gnashing mouths filled with teeth my gaint eyeballs encrusted in the black mass can see how I tear my mind world
apart. And as my world falls upon me and debris of it hits my of eyelid devoid eyes I can only think; let it crumble. I fear not the unknown or
whatever ill faited death might bring me there.
I own my own death no matter how bitter it might be. And I will not be fearfull of it. I have nothing to repend for that I haven't already payed for
in full. Nay! Death is my get-free-out-of-any-mess-I-build ticket. When the debris of my world has stapled up so high that my eyes can't see anymore,
that my mounths can't eat it up anymore and that my tentacles can't crumble anything more, then I can always expect death to liberate me from my
follish foolishness. Death is not to be feared, life is to be feared. When you think of ill fated places and demons in the hereafter, know that you
are paying in your moral conscienceness for the stupidity you are doing in life. Hell is not a place in the hereafter, it is the guilt you inheretly
feel in your mind when you are alive. Death is nothing more than a free escape.
Yes, death can be forced upon you, but forced or not it is always the end of your worldy problems and of your worldly sins.
edit on 18-7-2011
by AncientShade because: (no reason given)