I have been becoming more and more interested in what I have been putting into my body, which lead to me researching a few things. I would like the
ones reading this to know that this topic is depressing to me because I fear that the answer to the question in the title is ardently yes. Now to
begin with a little background story:
It is very difficult to know where it all began for me, but it makes sense to start out with my parents. My mom loved to party. She loved to drink and
have fun with friends. My dad, my biological dad, I know absolutely nothing about. Scary, huh? When my mom was pregnant with me, she told me, she had
stopped her drinking and partying. She told me she only smoked once. Even though she was responsible, according to her, and did what the doctors
advised, I was dying in the womb. I was suffocating. The doctors had to hurry to save me, thus I was born two months premature and sent to ICU for 17
days straight. To this day I have no idea what they put in me.
Growing up, I was described as an energetic and curious child, yet very socially challenged. I didn't start speaking until I was forced to go to a
specialized school for children a little slow to start speaking or walking. I still have some memories of that school more than 17 years later, some
not so friendly. Yet, I do not remember if they drugged me or not. I do remember having to get vaccines for public school against my will. My parents
were not educated enough to know that vaccines were a bad idea, they trusted the doctors. They were the professionals, so they had to know what they
Well, as the years passed, I got more and more vaccines. As I got more and more vaccines, things started to change. I also started drinking more water
instead of soft drinks, tap water since distilled water is yet to be available to me. I stopped taking ALL kinds of medications, prescription and
over-the-counter because I didn't want to be addicted. I knew they would mess my head up and I would be a drone, and this was before I realized what I
know now. Still, my focus was deteriorating and my motor skills were suffering as well as time passed. It got to a point where I couldn't read
anything that didn't have headers and I stammered more than ever. Why is this happening, I wondered. I wasn't taking medication. I refuse to get
anymore vaccines. Why? Then I realized it was the tap water.
I have been drinking tap water for years and years and years, and the effects are noticeable. I am losing focus, I am unable to sit still, and I
cannot type as well as I used to be able to. My writing has suffered and I am apathetic to a certain degree. I am starting to become more politically
active, though I lack the motivation to speak my own voice. I have so many ideas, but I lack the ability to let them be heard in the manner in which
they need be heard. I used to be the top of my class, but when I graduated High School... I was closer to the end. I would like to think I am somewhat
of an intellectual, but my focus has killed my ability to express my intellectual ideas. I wanted to know why this was happening, thus water came into
the picture. It was the only thing I consumed on a daily basis and I heard it was bad, so I did a little research. What I came across stunned me. I
have been poisoning myself... but I cannot do anything about it because I am having a hard time finding a job to pay for things that would help me
reverse this poisoning. My body is getting weaker and my mind is going off on tangents more and more, but I cannot stop drinking the water.
Pray tell, fellow ATSers, is it too late for me? Watch this video
was what made me write all of this today. It was the final straw, what made me question if it was too late for me. I am concerned that I am going to
be sterile and mentally unable to defend my beliefs when TSHTF. I fear that if I do have children some day, I cannot provide for them the way I really
would love to. These thoughts bring tears to my eyes. The thought of it being too late is almost too much for me to bear... and yet my mind is running
off on tangents as I type.
After watching that video, I now have even more reasoning to move out of this country. I now have more reason to raise my children far away from the
West, as far aways as I possibly can be. I will raise my children the way they are meant to be raised, and they will be given the facts on these
situations. They will have a chance to decide what is best for them, a chance that may have come to late for me.
If it does turn out to be too late, I may do something drastic. I don't know if this is me talking or the fluoridated water I am currently drinking. I
have noticed I get more and more thirsty the more and more I drink. Hmmm, God, how I just want to get away from all of this and live in solitude.
EDIT TO ADD:
I am trying my hardest to find ways to reverse this. I am going to start sitting down and reading novels like Nineteen Eighty Four
and watching less and less TV everyday. I will also steer clear of videogames as much as possible and maybe go outside more often. In no way am I fat,
but I still would like to exercise to get my mind off things.
edit on 22-12-2010 by Modern Americana because: (no reason given)