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Originally posted by MagesticEsoteric
I hope I'm not crossing any bounds here but, if I could say something about your daughter...She needs you. She needs her father for as long as she can possibly have you in her life. If there are ways to improve your health, maybe your daughter can be a source of inspiration or strength. I will tell you in all honesty that the lonliest moment of my entire life was the moment when I realized that I was orphan and I wouldn't wish that feeling onto anyone.
Originally posted by xynephadyn
I am sorry for the loss of your wife. I too have been through many traumatic experiences and I wanted to add a Grief symptom, which I experienced and is quite rare. I ended up being hospitilized for it.
3 horrible things happened to me in a period of 6 months. I lost my vision, I was diagnosed with MS, and I was dumped by "soulmate". I had a nervous breakdown. I never had it when I was diagnosed with MS and the doctors didnt tell me if I would ever see again. I kept it in and was strong for myself. I didnt grieve when I learned that I would see again, but that my life would be forever changed. But, the straw that broke the camels back- was my then boyfriend at the time, breaking up with me, just as we were planning marriage- because he couldnt deal with my illness and what it meant for our future.
What happened to me next, I will never fully understand. While I Have had significant depression and anxiety my entire life, this was 100 times worse. Basically, I was unable to cope with anything. I was breaking down and crying hysterically and screaming hysterically like every hour. I couldnt cope with a damn thing. My psychiatrist recommended that I be hospitalized at a psychiatric hospital for grief.
What saved my life was a little magic pill called Seroquel. After getting on that, I no longer felt the excrusiating pain that caused me to scream and wail. I went on short term disability leave at my job and stayed home for a good 3 months, when I decided to just change my entire life, and move to a new state and start a new career.
I did so- and within 5 months of moving, I met my Husband, and while things are still hard, I am very happy that I Have met him.
My advice for you, is that while you may very likely still be going through the stages of grief, dont get "hung up" on the idea that we only have 1 soulmate out there. The truth is, we tell that to ourselves so that we feel comforted in knowing that there is a match for us. But in reality, we have many opportunities for soulmates in our lives. I have met 3 in my lifetime. I am sharing this with you, because I want to encourage you that there is likely someone out there, who will be a soulmate to you in a different way, should you want to look for companionship in the future.