Welcome to the New World, page 1

The son of satan ought to be a better writer. He wouldn't send someone so incoherent, and he wouldn't announce his presence to the world via a nonsensical post on ATS.

You sound like you are having a psychotic episode.

The top three characteristic symptoms of schizophrenia are delusions, hallucinations, and disorganized speech. Typical onset is during young adulthood. You're 22. How is your social life? Difficult? How about your school/work, how's that going?

Just play along with me. I'll give your proposition a chance if you give mine a chance. Just as a hypothetical situation, let's consider that it is at least possible that you are mistaken about being the son of Licifer. Just - for the sake of argument - pretend you don't know if you are schizophrenic or not. Let's think about how to figure it out.

Schizophrenics have delusions, often of grandeur. This means that you would believe yourself to be of cosmic importance, and play some crucial role in some large scale event.

They also have hallucinations, which means that you would see and hear(more often hear) things that cannot be seen or heard by anyone else. These hallucinations would often be topically related to the delusions.

They also have very disorganized speech, which is representitive of their disorganized thinking. To be the person with this symptom - called formal thought disorder - you might not know it. The best way to tell would be if other people found your speech extremely hard to follow.

They also struggle to behave appropriately. This means having emotional outbursts often, or dressing inappropriately.

These symptoms usually leave the schizophenic out of a job and lacking a meaningful social life.

Do people sometimes use expressions that are hard for you to make sense of? If I say I'm going to kill two birds with one stone, do you think I mean I'm going to kill birds?

Would you say that these things could be true of yourself? People who are mentally sound do not display all of these symptoms.

So, we can explain the way you are in a couple of ways. It could a temporary psychotic episode, brought on by drugs, exhaustion, or brain damage(this last one is unlikely). Or, it could be that you are schizophrenic. It could not be that you are the son of Lucifer. You have a human father.

Then again, if you are the son of Lucifer or if you are psychotic, in neither case will I be able to convince you that something is wrong. But, if you're really going to move foward with this whole son of Satan thing, don't you think you should at least rule out psychosis? It would be awfully embarrassing if you made your big move and this all turned out to be nothing but an unfortunate misunderstanding.

u2u me if you want to talk one on one, don't rule out anything that could save your life or your quality of life, even if you believe it's not in danger