reply to post by KSPigpen
I'll add what I can about the experience but there's not much more, but here's a more detailed explanation...
Before & after I had this sensation I started feeling like I was being emotionally attacked by some force, seriously I haven't been depressed for a
very long time, but I felt very depression during this time before & after this all happened. It's not there anymore though. I also started having
strong thoughts about ascension, just random thoughts but it wouldn't stop flooding my brain, it actually kept hitting me so much I start repeating
the word over and over pretty much unconsciously. I mean I knew what was happening, but really had no control of it (kind of reminds me of the thread
about the person who couldn't stop singing, well I couldn't stop repeating ascension).
I was using that word in some small sentences as well, but the only one I remember was me saying (repeating several times) "ascension of Jesus", and
I will tell you right now I'm no die hard Catholic or even Christian... I believe in a higher power and I still am yet to fully develop my final
thoughts on the matters of religion (or in my mind the 'higher power').
Regardless of me using the name Jesus while talking out loud basically uncontrollably, I don't remember much else.
So to cover the topics here:
-felt extreme feeling of something bad that is going to occur
-followed by the word 'fire' running through my mind
-then with closed eyes I saw fire colors (orange-reddish colors, and what I thought to be a fireman but it was very faint, so I can't guarantee it
was what I really saw)
-unable to stop saying the word Ascension
-using Ascension of Jesus in a sentence multiple times in a row, but then it stopped
-feelings of being emotionally attacked by something/someone, like my psyche was starting to crumble a bit, I mean I was thinking about stuff that I
haven't thought about in a very long time, and things that really aren't important, or shouldn't be worrying me, but they all were. This lasted
from the beginning of this 'experience' til the end, and it faded slowly afterwords.
So, like I said take this with a grain of salt, I'm openly admitting I'm no prophet or anything (ha watch it be so! that'd totally flip my world
upside down) but I did want to share this experience so I could have some input from fellow ATSers.
Any ideas, or comments are welcome.
[edit on 9-10-2009 by highlyoriginal]