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Michael always thought that he had ailments of the body. He always had a neck that hurt, a foot that was twisted. Really, he had an affliction of his soul. He was extremely lonely, he was extremely unhappy. He felt purposeless, he felt lethargic. And the way he dealt with that pain -- and he was especially afraid of evasion, of that perhaps his best years are behind him.
you know, we think that he wasn't afraid of crowds but as I said, I think because he gave the public a key to his own self esteem, because he substituted love for attention, he was. This was always an issue before he went in front of crowds.
I'm speaking specifically as the years went on, I think Michael lived with a profound fear of rejection. And Michael told me once -- and this is a heartbreaking conversation between us -- "Shmuley, I promise I'm not lying to you," he said. "I'm not lying to you." He said that twice. "But everything I've done in pursuing fame, in honing my craft" to quote his words, "was an effort to be loved because I never felt loved." And he used to say that to me all the time.
"Shmuley, you want to make Michael accessible and normal. Don't you understand he's famous because he's not normal. And then I understood the full tragedy of his existence. Michael was terrified that the moment he became average that the public would forget him.
Sigmund Freud suffered from Panic Disorder at the time when he wrote his famous papers on anxiety neurosis. He had symptoms of an Anxiety Disorder and worried a great deal about his 'spells'.
Originally posted by Little One
reply to post by Yummy Freelunch
I sit here some days with ya! (did I just say that outloud!?)
It hasnt gotten to the point where I dont leave home at all. But, it has gotten to the point people are noticing.
Star and flags! Your post is very compassionate and so accurate. I completely relate to your hell. Im so sorry you, too, have to live like this. Im proud of you for coming forth and admitting it - allowing me to here - at least.
I think your awesome for seeing MJ in the way I too have came to. Sadly, however, not until after his death. Before, I just thought 'Geez - dude...'. Now, Ive done my research. Now, I love him as a fellow human being - no better or no worse than the next.. Now, I know he never touched a kid - before I didnt care to investigate. And thats sad and something Im not very proud of. But through it all - I have learned something... so I cant have any regrets!
Nice thread... May you have only calm energy full of light! Most of all - I post to let you know you arent alone in your anxiety or views on MJ.
Like the United States, Michael Jackson was spectacularly bankrupt, reportedly in the range of $800-million, which is rather a lot for an individual....He once materialized during halftime at the Superbowl in a shower of sparks, thrilling the multitudes while grabbing and stroking his sex organs, as though that was a heroic activity -- and indeed the nation seemed to emulate him as its culture became dedicated more and more to acting out masturbation fantasies. America was a fat man jerking off on the sofa watching a vampire of no particular sex vogue deliriously on the boob tube...One CNN reporter called him a genius the equal of Mozart. That's a little like calling Rachel Maddow the reincarnation of Eleanor Roosevelt. A nation addicted to lying to itself tells itself fairy tales instead of facing a pathology report.
America is "the man in the mirror," the gigantic, floundering Narcissus, sailing into the stormy seas of history.
Originally posted by dodadoom
reply to post by randyvs
I know huh! I am so there also. I could...
I am sure it will continue to be the only thing on the news for quite awhile yet! We still have the autopsy reports and trials to cover for the next year or two, etc, etc.
That will guarantee some good ratings for sure!
Does anyone still wonder why I picked this name?
If mama nature or father time doesnt do us in,
we will do it to ourselves.
And all while watching some other freak show on the telly.
Originally posted by Remixtup
Sorry, that child molesting scum will get no sympathy from me. If heaven is real, and he's there, I'm tellin saint peter to shove it.
Please dont start with the "he was never convicted b.s."
Neither was OJ, but that evil bastard is, and is going where he belongs.
we have a double standard in america it seems when it comes to celebs,
and frankly, I find it repulsive.