reply to post by thing fish
it's good to hear you're feeling better
as berenike just said - I found this after you started feeling better
one thing I would like to say - make sure your doctor knows about anything else you're taking - including over the counter stuff that you may assume
is harmless - you never know how things might - or might not - mix
also - you mentioned getting some sleep - you have no idea how important this is to everything - just working on that part alone could really turn
things around for you
this is not a time for you to be self indulgent and let yourself stay up past your bedtime -
establish a very structured routine for yourself and
stick to it as much as you can
I could go on and on about the basics - eat right, avoid caffeine, alcohol, blah, blah blah...I won't bother you with the obvious
you already mentioned working on getting more sleep - but melatonin might not be the way to go - so check with your doctor
there are many biochemical things that need to happen while you're sleeping - so if you're sleep deprived - it's only going to mess with your mood,
and disrupt your cycle further - it goes on and on like a perpetual motion machine until you can't even think your way out of a paper bag
OK - I'm going to say something about alcohol after all -
it's a depressant - just throwing another log on the fire -
and it also messes
with your ability to sleep - and with the quality of the sleep that you do get
not moralizing - just, if you can - give it up (completely) at least until you're feeling MUCH better (not just kinda better)
I don't actually know that you drink at all - it's just worth mentioning in case you do
i am going to see my councelor(sp) at 4 today but nothing will come of it. if i tell him the truth of how i am feeling then he will send me to the
hospital where i will be stuffed into an uncomfortable woom and have to meet with doctors i don't like.
you're counselor is probably already on to you - if they're any good
you have to let them know how bad bad really is - you just do
but if you absolutely can't trust that he/she is going to recommend what's best for you - you need to have one person at least that you know you can
call no matter what - and then you have to give yourself permission to call them
don't tell yourself that you don't want to bother anybody - bother them
this is the part that's just going to sound like "the sun will come out tomorrow..."
but the reality is - all the things that keep cycling in your mind over and over - the things you are obsessing about relentlessly - will start to
seem more manageable once you've got your mood stabilized
to some extent - you have to play a little mind game with yourself - and remind yourself that much of what you're feeling isn't real - it just feels
real
I hope you understand what I mean by that - because I know that it sounds like I don't really understand what you're experiencing
last thing - does your doctor/counselor know that you can't afford the meds?
if they don't know - they can't help you
sometimes there are things that they can do to work around financial hardship - it's worth asking