posted on Jan, 30 2009 @ 01:35 AM
I hear ya, except it's hard for me to share the guilt, because i tried and found that nobody really cares enough to do anything. So far in all my
years here observing you strange humans, i realized that the human race in it's current state isn't much worth fighting for.
That, and it's not MY children, as i see no need to add to the overpopulation problem, nor any reason to bring a life into a dead world. We're
just waiting for the big asteroid to bring some global justice to the equation. I hope we don't make it to colonizing space, because that just
means we'll find other worlds to exploit and spread the the destruction to.
Since i could recognize there was a world around me i've seen it going straight downhill fast. As a kid i saw it clear as day that we were on the
road to destruction and nobody would do anything. I remember spending most of my childhood shocked and horrified that nothing was being done. It
already was a world that felty all wrong, like nothing was real and everything was a lie. EVERYBODY was perpetuating the lie and i was pissed.
With everyone in on it so to speak, in extreme denial, i found i couldn't really trust anyone but myself to not be driven by denial and the guilt of
that denial buried in greed. I did stand back though and admire the intricate web of deceit built from slaves believing the liars, and how it
I tried to get help for our future, telling adults my concerns as a kid, and instead of any change, i got psychological evaluations till everything
looked like a blurry inkblot to me. I learned then that it was war, and i needed to go into battle to change things, so i launched my campaign. I
made sure i had attained a real education and not that crap they tried to feed me in middle school. I got good at public speaking and went to work.
I won awards for public speaking and ended up making my way up to being a guest speaker at a huge event, with the audience of government and industry
heads, the "elite". When i stepped to the podium and the crowd fell silent, i began my speech. Not the speech that was supposed to be given,
but a speech concerning the deliberate socioeconomic walls that were being constructed. I stood up, looked "them" in the eye, and told them that i
know what they conceal.
Before that the harassment had already been going on, with the school officials trying to force me out of school, i resisted.
They moved me from honors classes into remedial classes across the board, and my guidance counselor smirked and laughed when he gave me a lane excuse
of classroom overcrowding. Every week they'd try to intimidate me and force me to sign the papers to drop out. They tried to entrap me and get me
expelled, but i stayed a step ahead. I had a double agent in the system that i was working. She was trapped in the system and she KNEW they were
out to get me. She'd slip me info in books she'd suggest i read, and she helped me avoid several ambushes and traps. For a while i was under
some pretty thick surveillance by what i think was the FBI I tried to find out what agency they were with, but all i managed to do was repeatedly
blow their cover. I was engaging the powers that be actively at this time in a covertly militant way.
One day they finally trapped me and had some thug cops come beat my ass and haul me off. They tried to charge me with tons of stuff, several
terrorism charges included, they tried to get me to confess to anything that i'd say. I said nothing and they had nothing. I still got banned
from the public education system by the court.
I went back into battle and managed to get my GED under their noses, and later got my GED reissued as a valid diploma (by working the system and all
it's little loopholes) and in the end i beat them.
But, that's a small battle in the war so to speak, and though i did get to help some kids that were being wronged for the wrong reasons.
That was about 18 years ago that i left school. Since then i saw most of the horrifying things i feared would be reality surpassed by far more
horrifying things than i've ever imagined would happen. I saw hate, war, and death everywhere, all motivated by slavemasters' greed.
Now i'm just completely disgusted at the entire human race, you've had your chance to do good, and you ran with greed. Our parents were the ones
that failed to hand us down a world worth living in, and i've fought to change it, but i found that people are truly shallow, selfish, petty things
that have the attention span of goldfish and astounding shortsightedness.
If there was room for another person on this earth, and i did produyce offspring, what am i going to tell my kid?
"Son, this is your world, you are the future. Don't breathe the air, it's poison. Don't drink the water, it's toxic. Don't go in the sun or
you'll get radiation sickness. Most of the food is poisoned, and what little is left that's still pure you'll have to fight to obtain. Most
people are lying to you for personal gain so trust nobody. Yeah, it's smelly and overcrowded, the thought police are out there watching you
I just hope the big space rock comes to wipe us all out soon.