I had an episode when I was about 17 or so.
I was with three friends. I don't know if they were aware of what was going on, but I'm fairly sure they were.
Anyhow, we were watching the television and I started feeling this masive, REAL MASSIVE sense of Deja Vu. So massive, I was able to know what the news
broadcaster was going to say next. Then it became even greater, as the room starter to transform, and I went from inside to what felt like outside.
At this point the television became this large billboard, and the Deja' Vu got so intense, Like I could tell you what commercial was going to come
one next. No one else was speaking.
It all came down to a single point in time, where I felt I had been so many trillions times before, and will be going back there again FOR SURE. This
got me into reincarnation.
But to the point. As this moment drew nearer EVERYTHING, was shown to me. I was on a hospital type bed, with strangers arounds me, I couldn't see
them but it was too bright, but then I realized I knew them, they were comforting me, trying to help me get through this experience, like they always
I realized The Billboard/TV was a distraction to help me. The Deja VU was so damn intense I was never scared like this before, even when I think back
on it some sheesh almost 17 years later now, I get extreme panic attacks.
But I got the feeling the "medical" people in the room, not the comforters, but people monitoring my vitals and stuff, were getting some type of
"energy" from my fear and my feeling of naiivity. This was the feeling I was ultimately left with.
Now mind you this happened back before the Matrix, or any type of show or movie that I'd seen like this.
Anyway I never asked the other 3 people about it. I felt very naiive.
One of these people at the time was my GF. So about 6 months later I asked her about it, and if she saw it/ experience it too. Well, she got very
angry, and said, "it happens to everyone,no one talks about it, just deal with it."
Well I felt really naiive at this point. As well as scared that they might terminate me, turn me off or something because I asked about it. However I
would rather be turned off then go through that god awful experience again, it was incredibly scary, and stomach wrenching realization of what My Life
(I didn't know if I was the only one, and this whole world was a big show just for me to play the main character. Kinda like "The Truman Show".
But since it hasn't happened in all these years, I figure the intensity, is so massive, it can only be done to someone once per lifetime. Plus the
impending fear, and then subsequent Deju Vu, then Knowing you been through this a billion/trillion times before, and will be going through it in
future lives for billions and trillions more, that is how they get maximum fear thus maximum energy from you.
Now, this will sound wierd, but during all this horrible ,terrible,hellish I'd say "60-90" seconds this took place, I felt a feeling of
overwhelming love. Although this may have been false signals to get methrough it (because they do need this energy), or it was genuine, or maybe a bit
This is the first time I've spoken of this since I went to the hospital, because I had a breakdown some weeks after it. No...well actually the last I
spoke of it was with my ex GF.
So really... I have no idea if Life is dream and vice versa, or we are living some matrix like hologram "fake" life.
But if you told me I was going to go through that experience tommorow at so and so time. Trust me, I wouldn't be here for the appointment. It was
that horrible/terrifying, there isn't a word to describe it.
Maybe I'm just insane. But I've never had any other things like this happened before or since. I've had pretty normal life. *shrug*
Oh I forgot to mention that I came away with the feeling, well suredness that life and the universe and everything is just one never ending circle.
Whether theres more than one I don't know. But this episode might just be a certain point on that circle when I was created? I don't know how to
explain it, thats what bothers me so much about it. It's so hard to find the proper words for this experience and the feelings I felt, and the
knowledge (or false knowledge) I came away with.
Well I'm not looking forward to the next go around. Good thing is, it seems when you die, you forget about up until about 5 minutes before hand when
the deja vu starts to get way more intense than normal deja vu. I guess this is how they get maximum feelings of fear and naiiveness, that for all I
know they put it in a vial and sell it as some Alien drug, like in that cheesy 80's movie "I come in Peace" haha.
Laughter is good. This is one thing I DO KNOW!
Btw the link you poster earlier in the thread. The first image (it was kinda like a 4point ying-yang....
For years after this episode I kept trying to draw some type of symbol that could have 4 circles (since there were four of us there) where they all
touch at one point,and only one point. I found it impossible to do on a 2d landscape, BUT, the symbol in that link , it's nearly perfect, thats
exactly the idea I was trying to get down on paper, but just could never do it. Anyway, thanks for the link. The article was interesting as
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